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so i pretty much havent updated since like early january and its like mid fucking march! insane i used to be fucking addicted to this shit too.
so its spring break and im trying to have the time of my life but im really feeling like shit. everytime im alone my mind drifts and all i can think about is them and whu her and not me. whats srong with me? and what if i had been there on friday? what if i had done something different. i just cant help thinking i couldve made things turn out differently and i hate it! it still hasnt completely registered and i cant even fucking get up my courage and call him. im a dork but im hirting and i hate it so much. i was so dumb and nieve i actually thought it would work out but i guess we're just too different. and this whole time i was thinking opposites attract. but shes like him and he chose her. thats just that. oh well.
so its spring break and im trying to have the time of my life but im really feeling like shit. everytime im alone my mind drifts and all i can think about is them and whu her and not me. whats srong with me? and what if i had been there on friday? what if i had done something different. i just cant help thinking i couldve made things turn out differently and i hate it! it still hasnt completely registered and i cant even fucking get up my courage and call him. im a dork but im hirting and i hate it so much. i was so dumb and nieve i actually thought it would work out but i guess we're just too different. and this whole time i was thinking opposites attract. but shes like him and he chose her. thats just that. oh well.