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everything is going fine... the shock is kind of over now, i'm going through a phase where i'm missing my dad, thinking if he's still around in some other form or what. i really wanna tell him how proud we are of him and the way he raised us, he never had hit any of us, supplied us with whatever we needed, so many things i can't find words to describe them with.
people tell me that spirits remain around their homes and their families, other tell me some other stuff, i'd like to believe that dad is still around, sometimes we get this feeling that he actually is. whenever i do something he liked us doing, i get so excited, first time i did something he loved after he passed away i got this strong exciting feeling, i can't even describe it, i felt like dad was all around me smiling. i do good at univ and i feel like hes there. it's so strange. i tend not to share everything with people cuz they'll simply think i've gone nuts.
anyhow everyones been real nice to us, even my used-to-be-mean personal tutor, i asked her the other day not to sympathise me and to treat me like the rest, i had to put it in a nice way as well, i hate being sympathised.big time!
anyhow things aren't going too well with my gf. she put me off for some silly reason and well, once you;re off. shes thinking i like someone else and that sort of things. well yes and no. i do like a person for few days then i kinda see something i don't like from them then i jsut forget them. the main problem in this relationship is the distance, although shes doing her best to come and see me ONCE every three weeks, i'm still not satisfied. i dunno whether i should just break it off or continue ignoring and such, it's real pain when you don't wanna hurt someone but you no longer want to be with them. shit.
people tell me that spirits remain around their homes and their families, other tell me some other stuff, i'd like to believe that dad is still around, sometimes we get this feeling that he actually is. whenever i do something he liked us doing, i get so excited, first time i did something he loved after he passed away i got this strong exciting feeling, i can't even describe it, i felt like dad was all around me smiling. i do good at univ and i feel like hes there. it's so strange. i tend not to share everything with people cuz they'll simply think i've gone nuts.
anyhow everyones been real nice to us, even my used-to-be-mean personal tutor, i asked her the other day not to sympathise me and to treat me like the rest, i had to put it in a nice way as well, i hate being sympathised.big time!
anyhow things aren't going too well with my gf. she put me off for some silly reason and well, once you;re off. shes thinking i like someone else and that sort of things. well yes and no. i do like a person for few days then i kinda see something i don't like from them then i jsut forget them. the main problem in this relationship is the distance, although shes doing her best to come and see me ONCE every three weeks, i'm still not satisfied. i dunno whether i should just break it off or continue ignoring and such, it's real pain when you don't wanna hurt someone but you no longer want to be with them. shit.