Scream
I would love to do that. I'm not sure why, but I have a lot on my mind this morning. It's not light stuff either. It's stuff about my future. Who I want to be, who I don't want to be. It's got me frustrated now. I don't want to be frustrated. I just want to be Heler. Bit of an update. My parents are not moving to New Mexico. So I am not either...the whole point of all of us moving was so I could get instant in-state. However it's not a bad plan C. Plan A is pending, I have to be accepted. I applied to Evergreen State College. It's close enough, but it's far enough, I liked the structure of the courses and everything. I really hope I get in, because I don't want to be here next year. I'm not going back to clark. EVER. Plan B...move to portland...get residency and then go to PSU. No matter what plan I choose I'm going to find a way to go to England forever...okay just kidding not forever [thats just how I'm feeling right now] but for about a year. That would be great. In other events...I'm having my annual BBQ for the 4th -however it's like I'm that girl in High School that's worried about nobody coming to her party. The responses have been pretty negative...."oh we're going to the fort", "yeah sorry turns out I have other plans" -pissed. Damn it's a good thing we're not moving. Please excuse the post-teen angst.