definitely should not be up this late...
have you ever been in a place, personally, where you think you might actually drive yourself crazy in your own mind? almost to the effect that you've reached the point that all of those crazy things in life aren't really affecting you, it's the thoughts you allow to run through your head that are making you bonkers? I am so restless and unsatisfied. nothing is enough. I want answers and they should be the answers I want to hear. I want things I cannot have, and the mere thought of that is making me uneasy. I feel very lost right now, almost as if I am just going through the motions everyday. I wake up everyday, get ready, go to work, come home, eat dinner, hang out with friends, go places, laugh, enjoy myself, go to bed, wake up, and do it again the next day. on the surface, it all seems so normal and real, but I really feel as though I am doing it all because that's what's expected. I could fill this page for days of the unsettled feeling I have and the wishes/dreams I long to come true, but sleeping seems to be the much smarter thing to do at this point. I am not sure of the point of this entry; I guess I just felt like I needed to address this aimlessness I feel right now, the lacking grasp I currently hold on the situation. a feeling of uncomfortable in my own skin.