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So Mike doesn't like me, who would of thought? I certainly didn't. I was a mess about it last night, even a little today when I woke up but really, thinking about it, Mike is just such a great friend that I don't want anything to change. I texted him after crying to Mara on the phone when I was still drunk to talk about it today and he texted me back a little while ago to call him whenever I wanted to talk. So I'll do that sometime soon. I guess it's better to know, it's a little bit of weight lifted off my shoulders I guess. I had thought of what I'd do if this happened and really really did decide that I'd want to be bffls with him over a stupid hook up any day. But it's not like anyone else in my position wouldn't assume the same thing, Mike himself even said he'd do the same thing if he was in my place. I don't know, but I think being friends with him is the best anyway. He's just so nice but there's just soo much more to him. I don't know, I think I'm actually alright about it for the most part. As long as nothing changes, or if we just became better friends. Now that that's the all it is I just want us to be really good friends. I don't really have any guy friends at school who I'm super close to really. I mean Julian is always around but we don't talk about our feelings so it's different. Mike told me I could talk to him about anything because we're both in therapy and it's just good to have someone to talk to. I don't really tell Alexa and Ashley about that stuff, as much as they're my best friends here I just don't like to be that depressed person and I try soo hard to hide it from everyone. I've given up trying to hide it from Amanda, I mean we don't talk about it but if I'm upset one day I'm not going to hide my feelings. I tell Amanda a lot, a lot more than Alexa and Ashley. The friendships are just different I guess. But anyways, I think I'm cool with the Mike situation, at least I know where I stand. And as Rachel pointed out at least he's not using me like Chris did, which is good.
Oh well. My mom called to once again try and persuade me to come home tonight instead of tomorrow morning if it's going to be snowy but I once again said I don't want to go home on a Saturday night so my dad and her will both pick me up tomorrow morning. She's taking me to get a haircut and go to the doctor, which is good so that I can get a note for my professors. It'll be nice to go home tomorrow, seeing Chevy will cheer me up too. I miss him so much when I'm gone, it makes me sad a little because he's so cute and nice and I can't see him. I'll get my laundry done too.
Oh and I did my film make up work. 10 pages. Thank you concerta.
Alright I guess it's time to shower and face the day.
Oh well. My mom called to once again try and persuade me to come home tonight instead of tomorrow morning if it's going to be snowy but I once again said I don't want to go home on a Saturday night so my dad and her will both pick me up tomorrow morning. She's taking me to get a haircut and go to the doctor, which is good so that I can get a note for my professors. It'll be nice to go home tomorrow, seeing Chevy will cheer me up too. I miss him so much when I'm gone, it makes me sad a little because he's so cute and nice and I can't see him. I'll get my laundry done too.
Oh and I did my film make up work. 10 pages. Thank you concerta.
Alright I guess it's time to shower and face the day.