A new year, a new entry.
Hello, 2008. I wasn't exactly looking forward to you, but I can't stop the fact that you're here now.
First, I love Black Adder. Not particularly the first series, it drags, but the other ones so far (two and three) are fantastic.
Second, I got a new phone. Kind of on a whim. I gave in and got a Razr, but a black one. After 2 1/2 years of the other one, it was time.
Third, I am doing pretty good with the knee. I'm supposed to wear my brace when I walk, but it actually makes things worse since it kills my hip and doesn't allow me to actually walk properly. I might have to re-invest in a good brace that doesn't cover my entire leg and allows it to move. I've also got a handicap permit until the end of March (bwahahaha!).
Fourth and Fifth, my holidays were good. I got practical presents for Christmas (a vacuum and a sewing machine!), learned how to knit, and had a pretty good New Years with interesting pancakes (I don't recommend Smarties).
Sixth, what I think is my New Year's resolution, or something.
So, for the past few months I've just felt...stagnant, I guess. Ineffective, bored with my life, and like I wasn't really going anywhere. I didn't try very hard this past semester (and my grades reflect it), and I slacked off on research for my thesis and there's going to be hell to pay for that.
I should have done a lot of things. It would have been better if I hadn't done a few others. I've sat on my bed for the past two weeks doing nothing because I just had no motivation (and also I was often druggy). I read some books, I watched lots of crap on the telly. I mean, I did some fun things like seeing Juno, finding good Indian food in Flint, this past weekend with Ashley's wedding and New Year's Eve, but I haven't done anything productive that helped anyone.
I miss community service, but I don't know if I'll have time for much this semester. I really liked the idea of Service Saturdays with Wesley, but I think everyone and their brother was too busy for the past few months to really do anything with that. I don't know about joining Circle K. I don't have the schedule for the Literacy Corps. I've wanted to help in an animal shelter for a while, but I never got around to the Cat Sanctuary and I never looked at doing anything with Ingham County. I kind of miss giving blood too, which seems harder since I'm not on campus anymore.
I also miss being creative. I try to not buy it, since that would be another thing on the List of Things I Can Afford Not To Have. I've wanted to learn how to play guitar since I was like 12, but I just...haven't. I stopped with band after high school and Ren Fest. I miss theater too. I tried it here at MSU, but I felt like I didn't really fit in there so I stopped. I've taken up knitting, and now that I have a sewing machine I can make more stuff.
I just feel kind of lost. I know what I need to do, and I know what I want to do, but I just can't seem to get it together and get it done or even started. I'm hoping that my last semester will give me the push to get my shit together and do something, but I don't know. If I don't get Teach for America, I'll need to look at other programs or grad school, which I'm not sure I can afford when I factor in paying off undergrad loans, car-things, living space, etc.
I know I can do better than this. I just don't know where to start.
First, I love Black Adder. Not particularly the first series, it drags, but the other ones so far (two and three) are fantastic.
Second, I got a new phone. Kind of on a whim. I gave in and got a Razr, but a black one. After 2 1/2 years of the other one, it was time.
Third, I am doing pretty good with the knee. I'm supposed to wear my brace when I walk, but it actually makes things worse since it kills my hip and doesn't allow me to actually walk properly. I might have to re-invest in a good brace that doesn't cover my entire leg and allows it to move. I've also got a handicap permit until the end of March (bwahahaha!).
Fourth and Fifth, my holidays were good. I got practical presents for Christmas (a vacuum and a sewing machine!), learned how to knit, and had a pretty good New Years with interesting pancakes (I don't recommend Smarties).
Sixth, what I think is my New Year's resolution, or something.
So, for the past few months I've just felt...stagnant, I guess. Ineffective, bored with my life, and like I wasn't really going anywhere. I didn't try very hard this past semester (and my grades reflect it), and I slacked off on research for my thesis and there's going to be hell to pay for that.
I should have done a lot of things. It would have been better if I hadn't done a few others. I've sat on my bed for the past two weeks doing nothing because I just had no motivation (and also I was often druggy). I read some books, I watched lots of crap on the telly. I mean, I did some fun things like seeing Juno, finding good Indian food in Flint, this past weekend with Ashley's wedding and New Year's Eve, but I haven't done anything productive that helped anyone.
I miss community service, but I don't know if I'll have time for much this semester. I really liked the idea of Service Saturdays with Wesley, but I think everyone and their brother was too busy for the past few months to really do anything with that. I don't know about joining Circle K. I don't have the schedule for the Literacy Corps. I've wanted to help in an animal shelter for a while, but I never got around to the Cat Sanctuary and I never looked at doing anything with Ingham County. I kind of miss giving blood too, which seems harder since I'm not on campus anymore.
I also miss being creative. I try to not buy it, since that would be another thing on the List of Things I Can Afford Not To Have. I've wanted to learn how to play guitar since I was like 12, but I just...haven't. I stopped with band after high school and Ren Fest. I miss theater too. I tried it here at MSU, but I felt like I didn't really fit in there so I stopped. I've taken up knitting, and now that I have a sewing machine I can make more stuff.
I just feel kind of lost. I know what I need to do, and I know what I want to do, but I just can't seem to get it together and get it done or even started. I'm hoping that my last semester will give me the push to get my shit together and do something, but I don't know. If I don't get Teach for America, I'll need to look at other programs or grad school, which I'm not sure I can afford when I factor in paying off undergrad loans, car-things, living space, etc.
I know I can do better than this. I just don't know where to start.