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my cat died through the night. he got hit. i've never felt this helpless or this... i dont even know. the tears wont stop coming. i remember when i had to have him sleep with me for the first few weeks so that he'd learn to potty train and sleep through the night

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The paint was permanent and could not be washed away. The Komendant even tried to get a rise out of the family asking if there was anything wrong if there were any problems. The family however did not falter. They did not let such ignorance and hatred towards them has an effect. At least an effect that one could see. Every day they had to use that bathroom and every day they had a small victory by being strong.
Maybe it was because of their Royalty they did not let others know how much they were being affected by things. Or it could be a mix of their Royalty an their family ties, but for the most part the family was always calm and collected. If they were suffering in their prison of a house no one knew about it. They always played it cool in front of others,

“And yet they were a kindly family, those royals. During those last months and
even last weeks I recall no outbursts among the family members, no screaming or tantrums. There was no fighting, not even among the children. And never once did
I hear a raised voice between Nikolai and Aleksandra. No, never” (32).

They made it seem as though they were the perfect family.
The family stayed strong because of their religion not only their love for one another. Aleksandra had many pictures of the saints. She would line them out on tables; they were of the few possession she took with her when her family was exiled. Nikolai would fight with the guards to have services at the house so that his family could pray together. Aleksandra wrote to her friend once,

“The spirits of the whole family are good. God is very near us, we feel His
support, and are often amazed that we endure events and separations which once
might have killed us. Although we suffer horribly still there is peace in our
souls” (38).

Some people say that is was Empress Aledsandra’s fault that Russia became the way that it did. That it was her fault that Russia called for a revolt and that there was war in their country now. Horrible lies and stories were made up about her sleeping with other men and being a traitor to Russia. Leonka, the kitchen boy, says, “What first astounded me was the number of photographs, pictures of aunts and uncles and cousins and children that covered the walls literally every tabletop. Such was the importance of family to her” (50-51). Even if the Empress wasn’t the best leader she was a loving mother.
Every person, every family has their limits. The Romanov’s were not even allowed to see through windows. The windows had lime put on them and were glued shut. Finally one day the Reds opened a single window. It can only be imagined how excited and how much hope this brought to the family. They know had cool fresh air coming into their prison. The entire family rushed to the window. Anastasyia put her head out the window because she was so excited. And then a guard shot a gun at her. Leonka describes the scene,

“I stumbled back, plastering myself against the wall. Before my eyes Aleksandra
made a frantic examination of her youngest daughter- limbs, head, torso-but, no,
Anastasyia was not wounded, she was unscathed, merely terrified. As the girl
broke into a flow of tears, Aleksandra clutched her daughter to her chest, cradling
her and sobbing as well. A moment later the three other grand duchesses fell upon
them, and this heap of womanhood shook like a volcano until finally for the first
time, they erupted. All this time, all these months, not one of them had broken
down, not one of them had let go, and now... now they bellowed forth” (70).

The Komendant came running into the room accusing of one of them trying to escape, that the Tsar would actually leave his family. The Tsar replied with, “I... I... would never... never leave my family” (71).

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In the end the Romanov’s were executed. However when Leonka followed the truck carrying the dead bodies, two bodies fell out of the truck. One was Aleski the heir to the thrown and the other was Maria the second oldest daughter. Maria was alive and the heir was not. Leonka hid Maria in the woods and even when she knew her brother was dead she demanded, “Bring him to me” (182). She protested she could not leave her brother behind. Which was the way of their family. They could not and would not leave one of them behind.
There is no doubt that the Romanov family was strong. They together kept each other alive. Their love for one another supported them through their miserable situation. They gave hope and reason to live to one another. Some say it does not matter that they were there for each other because in the end they die. But we all have to die soon or later it is how we live our lives that matter. They lived their lives as fully and happily as they could, which would not have been possible without each other. They gave the meaning of life to one another.