a little blurb...
So I was sitting in my room two days ago and I realized the date, November 29th, and I was shocked into a state of confusion. It is Decemeber today, that's crazy. It is not so amazing that it's already decemeber, even tho I do feel like it was just summer, but this is the first time since I can remember that at this point in the year that I am not in some type of depression. Every year the middlish of october until febraury are the hardest months for me emotionally and psychologically. I don't know if it's because I am so busy this year or that I am genuinally happy. Whatever it is I am not superficially feeling how I want to feel, I just am feeling good.
The semester is over in two weeks and then I will be home. Home makes me sad, and I hate it. Thanksgiving wasn't that great, when I was out of the house with Kraig or hanging out with people it was good but my mom is honestly losing it. It makes me sad to be in my house because I know I can leave but my brothers cannot. I did not want to come back here after thanksgiving just so I could stay with my brothers. I really am going to miss my building and the people in for the four weeks I am home. There are some people here that make me laugh and happier than I have ever been in my life. And being able to spend any night I want wrapped in Kraig's arms is worth more than anything I could get anywhere else.
A lot of things have changed at home, but I have realized who it is I will have for the rest of my life. I was really frustrated at times because I feel like there are people I have lost for no reason, and others I cannot believe still stuck around. I had lunch with rob and we were joking around about one of the first nights we were together, and that was four years ago. Wow. So much time has gone by since I first met people and it's disappointing that some have diwindled away and wonderful some people just wont go away.
things are good.
The semester is over in two weeks and then I will be home. Home makes me sad, and I hate it. Thanksgiving wasn't that great, when I was out of the house with Kraig or hanging out with people it was good but my mom is honestly losing it. It makes me sad to be in my house because I know I can leave but my brothers cannot. I did not want to come back here after thanksgiving just so I could stay with my brothers. I really am going to miss my building and the people in for the four weeks I am home. There are some people here that make me laugh and happier than I have ever been in my life. And being able to spend any night I want wrapped in Kraig's arms is worth more than anything I could get anywhere else.
A lot of things have changed at home, but I have realized who it is I will have for the rest of my life. I was really frustrated at times because I feel like there are people I have lost for no reason, and others I cannot believe still stuck around. I had lunch with rob and we were joking around about one of the first nights we were together, and that was four years ago. Wow. So much time has gone by since I first met people and it's disappointing that some have diwindled away and wonderful some people just wont go away.
things are good.