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me and my lovely yvonne went to the mall together today! woo hoo. i got a lot of nice stuff... i've added a lot of clothes to my wardrobe... a lot of pink.
i also worked today. i realized that i can't work 50 hours a week anymore, i physically don't have it in me. maybe i'm already getting too old. you would think working at a pizza place would be a walk in the park... but all that standing and mindless work. eickeramba.
at work today i had an epiphany. i have fridays off when i go back to school, it's like i forgot. what am i going to do with myself? sleep all day until christine gets out of all her classes? if i did that, i would be faye. i have to get a job or a hobby... but i may be too lazy for that.
also i go back in like two weeks. i don't know if i feel like that is a short amount of time or long amount of time. before i ever left for unh i had a fear of missing all my friends but when i got to unh i felt fine for the most part like all their lives stopped in a way and when we were together we would pick up right where we ended... and for the most part it did. then when i got to school i was like man it's going to be hard to not see all my new friends and the people i see every day for 5 weeks, but i feel the same way. i'm not worried about getting back and things being weird between me and say nick or christine. which is good.
i can't wait to sleep in my bed at school though. i miss my bed. i actually get a whole nights sleep in it.
and i'm excited for mine and christine's double, i think things will be smoother. and the thought of not sleeping alone gives me goosebumps.
it's a new year and today i'm happy and thankful. i have a lot even if sometimes i feel like i have nothing or seem as thought i hate everything around me. sometimes i just need to break down to be okay again.
if i push away, push back.
i also worked today. i realized that i can't work 50 hours a week anymore, i physically don't have it in me. maybe i'm already getting too old. you would think working at a pizza place would be a walk in the park... but all that standing and mindless work. eickeramba.
at work today i had an epiphany. i have fridays off when i go back to school, it's like i forgot. what am i going to do with myself? sleep all day until christine gets out of all her classes? if i did that, i would be faye. i have to get a job or a hobby... but i may be too lazy for that.
also i go back in like two weeks. i don't know if i feel like that is a short amount of time or long amount of time. before i ever left for unh i had a fear of missing all my friends but when i got to unh i felt fine for the most part like all their lives stopped in a way and when we were together we would pick up right where we ended... and for the most part it did. then when i got to school i was like man it's going to be hard to not see all my new friends and the people i see every day for 5 weeks, but i feel the same way. i'm not worried about getting back and things being weird between me and say nick or christine. which is good.
i can't wait to sleep in my bed at school though. i miss my bed. i actually get a whole nights sleep in it.
and i'm excited for mine and christine's double, i think things will be smoother. and the thought of not sleeping alone gives me goosebumps.
it's a new year and today i'm happy and thankful. i have a lot even if sometimes i feel like i have nothing or seem as thought i hate everything around me. sometimes i just need to break down to be okay again.
if i push away, push back.