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ok so pissed off doesn't sum up my feelings right now. but i must say jordan made it a little better by bringing me flowers just now, but i still want to cry. ok so i am in this play and some of you may have heard of it but now that i think of it, most of you are in it. well in this play i have about 180 lines. ok i am not gonna beat around the bush anymore i am just gonna vent. SO my fuck face brother said to me "sarah why do you have to be involved in so much, i went to the last stupid play you were in which was 4 hours long do i have to go to this one?" oh it continues "why are you so busy all the time, why do you have to have one of these every month? i'm sick of this" so now i hate him. i have worked so hard on this play. this is not a character i am used to and i must say, not to toot my own horn, but i think i am doing a damn good job. but what i can't figure out is why more people, family, friends included came to see a play where i had 25 lines as opposed to my first play that i am the leading role. i'm sorry to ask for a little bit of support. IS THAT A PROBLEM?!?!?!?! don't get me wrong i fully understand things coming up, but for people to be so stupid to say that they just aren't coming is NOT COOL! i wish i could feel good about what has been happening on stage but i can't. i wish i could say my character is funny but after tonight's audience all hope of that is gone. i am just depressed and well it sucks but i do have a good boyfriend who brings me flowers