Sep 17, 2004 18:32
I want to find out today if anyone has ever become a complete "negative feed" as I like to call it. Totally incapable of actually "feeling" an emotion, just thinking it. Its something I've wanted to know for a while, and now I have the capacity to find out.
Apparently the 2nd team wants me to stay, as SSG Hale told me I control my fate. I've been extremely docile class wise lately, trying to keep myself here. I want this job. I'm good at it.
I want to start my book. I really want to put everything down. I'm not really sure exactly how I want to spit it out thought. Its creeping through Coming to the front again. I'll get it out eventually.
My brakes are shot. I'm barreling forward out of control.