Forever You and I
Disclaimer : Super Junior members are belong to SM entertainment.
Genre : Romance, friendship
Rated : T
Pairing(s) : Kang-In/Eeteuk, Kang-In/Eunhyuk, Donghae/Eunhyuk
A/N : Huwa.. In the end, I did a story in english! This story is about what the Pearl Blue Team felt after the card-kissing game. This is my first english fanfiction, so I’m so grateful if you’d like to help me in giving corrections. Oh! If you have it, please play the Korean song titled‘forever you and I’, it’s so touchy. UNBETAED!
On to the story!
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gHee presents a Super Junior fanfiction
- Forever You and I -
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“Jungsu hyung..”, the strurdy man still tried to catch his parter’s hand, “I said-wait up!”, well, he missed it again.
Seems like the brown haired man didn’t hear it, or he didn’t want to hear it-moreover, to obey it. He didn’t really know what was happen to him, but he knew that there’s something burning deep inside his chest. The show has over, the silly-card-kissing-game has been done, so there must be no more reason for him to stay that way. But still, he felt a strange feeling which made him wanted to avoid him.
“And I said once more, Youngwoon.”, he shouted unpatiently, “just leave me alone.”, he added a rude tone in his voice.
The black haired man gasped, he really understand that Eeteuk was so stubborn in some ways, “Stop avoiding me, Hyung. Say a word!”, he finally caught Eeteuk’s hand and made the smaller man turned facing him, “why?”
Eeteuk turned his head to other direction, avoiding eye contact with his partner, “Let me go, Youngwoon. That’s my words.”
“How can I let you go with this kind of situation?”, said Kang-in, “you act so strange after the shooting. You’re avoiding me like.. Like I were a disgusting bugs.”, Kang-in gasped again, “if I did something wrong, just tell me.”
Eeteuk pointed upward, his eyes met Kang-in’s eyes which were full of confusion. He hated Kang-in all the way he did. He hated that well built body, he hated those calm eyes, he hated those black shiny hair-he hated him. How could he said to Kang-in, that he wanted to hate every inch of that body? How could he shouted his aversion to this lovely man in front of him? No, Eeteuk would never be able to tell Kang-in that he hated him that much.
“You’re the mistake.”, he wishpered hopelessly, “you’re my mistake Youngwoon. And for hell’s sake, just let me go.”
Kang-in furrowed his forehead, “I don’t get it.”
“You don’t have to understand it, even get it..”, Eeteuk tried to escape-but no use at all. Kang-in’s body is bigger than his, made him hard to runaway.
“Well, I won’t let you go until I know the problem, Hyung..”, he said in low tone, “just.. Just tell me. Is it that hard?”
Silent.
Eeteuk still looked at the floor, he tried his best not to cry, “I hate you.”, he wishpered. He even couldn’t recognize his own voice. He didn’t know why did his heart beat faster than usual when they did the card kissing game. After the game finished, Eeteuk forced hiself to smile as best as he could, and left the studio without any permission at all. The brown haired man thought, every single man needed their time to be alone. Especially after that stupid game which made him..
“Are you..”
“I’m not jelaous.”, cut Eeteuk before Kang-in finished his words.
Kang-in closed his eyes, “You know you don’t have to-“
“After you kissed Hyukjae that many times?”, Eeteuk shouted unconsciously, “and now, you tell me not to be jelaous?”
“So you’re jelaous, then?”, asked Kang-in.
Eeteuk didn’t answered it. It was true that he and Kang-in were never in a relationship, but they knew that their friendship was more than it. Eeteuk knew very well his true reason why he hated Kang-in that much. And also, he knew why did he couldn’t hate whole of him. There was something odd which forced Eeteuk to look at him again, to smile at him once more, and to forgive him as always.
“Hyung, that was just a show.”, said Kang-in, “we have to give them the best we can. We have to entertain those who watched our show.”, he added, “that is our job, Hyung. That was JUST it.”
“I know-I know! You don’t have to tell me how an entertainer have to ignore his own feeling in front of the screen!”, Eeteuk shouted.
Kang-In nodded, “There you know.”
“But..”, Eeteuk shaked his head, “I’m tired..”
“You’re our leader, Hyung.”, said Kang-In calmly.
Eeteuk’s eyes widely opened and glared at Kang-In. Few minutes passed by, and he didn’t say a word but laughed bitterly, “You closed your eyes.”, Eeteuk said it in desperate tone, “seems like you really enjoyed the kisses with Hyuk, eh?”
Kang-in gasped, “Hyung...”
“Huh.”, Eeteuk snorted harshly, “I was not blind, and I’m not. Everybody could see how passionate when you put the card in his lips..”, the brown haired man can hear his hopeless voice, “you did that on purpose, didn’t you?”
“When I closed my eyes, it didn’t mean that I enjoyed the kiss..”, Kang-in tried to see his partner’s face. He brushed Eeteuk’s soft cheek and stopped in his chin. Slowly, he raised Eeteuk’s chin and saw the beautiful face only few inches in front of him. Kang-in minimized the distance between them by taking a step closer to the smaller guy, “that was not it.”
“Liar..”, said Eeteuk while staring at his partner sharply, “you know-I hate myself for not being able to hate you..”
Kang-In didn’t answer. He knew it, that the border between hatred and love was very thin that nobody could find it. He used to hate this leader because of his overconfidance, but he’s the only one who fell for him in the first place. Kang-In has no idea, since when did he start to steal a chance for spending more time with him. For being honest, he did feel a strange tremble when his lips was so close with his leader’s lips. That was too much, and Kang-In felt uncomfortable to show his feeling off toward Eeteuk in front of those cameras.
Well, he should admit it-he lost control in the end of the game.
“I’m not lying.”, Kang-in’s left hand now brushed the brown hair, “I was wondering-it was you whom I kissed in that way..”
Eeteuk schoked, “You.. So why...”
Kang-in smiled softly, “And I also wonder..”, Eeteuk couldn’t move when Kang-in’s hand hugged his waist tightly, “there were no card between our lips..”
The brown haired man closed his eyes when Kang-in’s hand moved from his chin to his nape, “Young-“
“Wondering is painful-“, he wishpered in huskiness, “-I want to feel it.”
Eeteuk felt a queer sensation when Kang-in’s lips touch his. That was so different compared to the ridiculous game-when the card was between their lips. He shivered in pleasure, never thought or even imagined that a real kiss would be this good. Eeteuk slowly reached the younger man’s black hair and softly stroked them. He pressed his body to the bigger guy, feeling Kang-In’s warm muscles around him. They groaned when the light kiss slowly became passionate.
“Ngghh...”, Eeteuk took few steps backward and leaned his back on the wall. He was having a trouble to serve those hungry lips-which now was navigating inside his mouth. Both of his hands were firmly held by Kang-in’s left hand, while his right hand was so busy unbuttoning Eeteuk’s light purple shirt. Eeteuk moaned harder when he felt Kang-in’s teeth bit his bottom lips tenderly. They shared kisses and moans that day that much, until Kang-in pulled back for breathing.
They both panted in bliss and watched each other.
“Your face turns so red..”, said Kang-in, “that”s very sweet.”
“What sweet?”, asked Eeteuk. He still tried to control his breath.
Kang-in smiled softly, “Your lips. Your tounge. All of you..”, his right hand brushed Eeteuk’s hair, “saranghae, Jungsu-hyung..”, Kang-In whispered it right in front of his lover left ear, made Eeteuk trembeled more in the younger man’s hug. The leader was not able to say a word, so as the replacement, he hugged Kang-In back. Eeteuk put his forehead on Kang-In’s shoulder and silently a teardrop feel.
“Saranghae yo, Young..”, said the leader, “but I hate you for being so close to Hyukjae. Sounds girly maybe but-damn, stop laughing!”, Eeteuk pouted a little.
Kang-In smiled, “That’s funny.”, he tried his best not to laugh, “I need to tell you something abuot me and Hyuk.”, Kang-In’s smile vanished, “something you have to keep as a secret, and why did I do my last favor to him in the show just now..”
“Huh?”, Eeteuk pulled hiself and stood up perfectly, then looked to his lover eyes. There’s something odd there, and he really wanted to find out why, “about Hyukjae? What.. I didn’t know that he had some trouble. Why didn’t he tell me?”
“As usual, leader..”, Kang-In stoked the brown hair softly, “always be a mother figure for us. You care so much about Hyukjae, no matter how jelaous you are.”, teased Kang-In, which made the older blushed, “well-let’s find somewhere else. We need more privacy in some ways..”, he whispered in husky voice.
“Damn, what do you mean?”, Eeteuk laughed. His laughter was replaced by a bright and warm smile as always, “saranghae, Young. Once more.”
Kang-In smiled back, and grabed Eeteuk’s right hand, “I’ll always be waiting those words from you.”, he took a step and brought Eeteuk away from the empty corridor. A silent place which would be the most memorable path for both of them. Kang-In tightened his grasp, “I love you too, Jungsu. Forever you and I.”
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//Flashback//
Kang-In’s POV
It was raining that night.
I remember, how could I got there and found the light and slender body that I recognize well stood up in the middle of the rain. That was so odd, I’ve never received that kind of messege before-especially a very short letter with no sender’s name in it. I didn’t know how long did the poor letter laid down in my room’s floor, neither how long the unlucky sender stood up there. I cursed myself for being not so sensitive with the strange paper in my room.
When I read what’s written down there, I immediately know who’s writing-I recognized that as Hyukjae’s handwriting. It was just a simple one lined writing sonded like this, ‘When you’re reading this, I’m waiting for you in the town park.’, I was confused. I didn’t get it why did he send me this kind of letter. I ran all the way to the park with my coat, the rain has been falling since fifteen minutes ago. I thought and I hoped that I would not see him in the middle of this heavy rain.
But I found him.
He was standing with his back leaned on the garden lamp’s pole, he even didn’t take shelter although there were many trees in the park. I approached him harshly and told him how was I worry about him. He just gave me his beautiful smile as always, but I could see his hectic eyes. I gave him my coat, although I knew it would be no use-he was already heavily soaked and cold. I should be the one to be blamed, for making him suffered and caught a cold like this.
Then, he told me that. He said the ‘saranghae’ words to me. I remember the slight patches of light red on those soft cheek. I could see his emberassement when he said those words, but I knew he was serious-and I was kinda afraid of it. I only loved him as my dearest little friend, so how could I dumped him without broke his heart? I couldn’t feel the same way he felt to me, but I was not that cruel to say such things. For long time I didn’t ever know, I always looked to one person only.
My leader.
Our leader.
No, that was not him. Not a cute man named Hyukjae, not him. I was bad in finding rejection words, and I was sure I have sliced his heart into pieces. I knew that he would break in front of me, I knew he was crying although the water and his tears became one, and flew down on his beautiful face. But he kept on smiling at me, and asked me to be his friend as always. He told me that nothing would be different, that he would always smile and be the best rapper of Super Junior. As our Eunhyuk.
Nothing has happened. I and he would consider this as nothing. I would forget this painful moment, but I knew Hyukjae would never be able to forget how sore his heart was. I told him to go home and took a bath. When I almost asked him to bring him home, I realized that there was another man standing in the middle of the rain. He was as soaked as us, but he was panting and looked so tired. With a glance, I know he was running many times for searching something-or someone. He even didn’t wear jackets, only a t-shirt and long pants with a slippers. Some muds covered his blue jeans-maybe he was searching for this guy to many places before.
I smiled at him.
“You’re so lucky, Hyuk.”, I was shispering, “Donghae’s there for you.”
//End of flashback//
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In fact, the corridor was not that empty. Eeteuk and Kang-In didn’t realize that a pair of slant-eyes watched them when they were sharing kisses. A pair of ears was hearing how much moans an groans came from their mouth. And now, the slender man could do nothing but leaned his back on the wall and saw the ceiling with an empty hope. He was rejected, and just now, he watched carefully when Kang-In told his leader how much he loved him. This rapper now started to laugh painfully.
“Hyukjae..”
He was surprised, and turned his head to the left. The beautiful man slowly smiled at him, “Hi, Donghae.. What’s up?”
“I watched it too.”, said the taller man, “I didn’t do it on purpose, actually. And I didn’t meant to stalk you, but-“
“That’s not a big deal, Donghae.”, Eunhyuk forced his lips to form a fake smile, “we should celebrate it, eh? After Siwon and Heechul, now our leader has found his lover.”, now, Eunhyuk forced himself to laugh, “what a good news.”, he looked to Donghae, “hey, Donghae. I thought we could tell the papparazi that they two were in a relationship! I can’t wait for the press confrence.”, he laughed again.
But Donghae couldn’t be tricked, “Don’t laugh if you don’t fell like it, Hyuk.”
Directly, that laughter and smile vanished. Eunhyuk’s fake expression now was changed by a broken smile, “What do you think I should do, then?”
“Just do what you want.”, said Donghae with soft voice, “if you want to cry..”
Eunhyuk grinned and gave his back to Donghae, “Silly.”, Donghae could see Eunhyuk’s back is now trembling, “who’ll cry for him? Why should I cry for him?
“Because..”, Donghae didn’t continue his words. He knew it, how hard the game was. He knew that Eunhyuk was broken hearted and he had to struggle against his feeling. He knew that Kang-In wanted to show them that everything was alright, althought he knew it wasn’t. Donghae couldn’t imagine what did Eunhyuk feel when he and the man who have rejected him play the passionate game. How jelaous Eeteuk when he was watching his lover and Eunhyuk kissed the card.
He didn’t know, but he realized that his heart was broken too as he saw it. The man he loved really enjoyed it when Kang-In’s lips played behind the card he sucked. Eunhyuk was hopeless and he couldn’t help but kept closing his eyes during the game. Donghae knew it, he was not that blind-but he couldn’t do anything but seeing Eunhyuk enjoy the card kissing. He was happy for watching his bright smile, although he realized that those smile was not for him.
He knew it-and it was damn hurt.
“Donghae..”, called Eunhyuk with low tone, “for this last time.. I promise it will only take few minutes..”, Donghae could hear the painful voice, “...may I?”
The younger man gasped, “Of course you may.”, Donghae put his hand on Eunhyuk’s shoulder, “until you stop crying, I’ll be here.”
Eunhyuk turned his body and put his head on Donghae’s chest, then he cried silently there. Donghae gasped again, and let the one he loved removed his sadness with this way. Slowly, his hands moved and hugged that slender body. The broken man, the fragile body, Donghae wanted to be the one to protect him. He could feel his T-shirt was a little damp, but he didn’t even care. Donghae gave a light kiss on Eunhyuk’s hair, sniffing the scent of orange from him.
“Saranghae yo, Hyukjae..”, whispered Donghae softly, “No matter who you loved.. No matter you even never did look at me..”, slowly, Eunhyuk pulled hiself from Donghae’s hug and looked to the taller man’s eyes.
“I..”, Eunhyuk shaked his head, “but now, I can’t..”
“I know.”, cut Donghae, “you don’t have to broke my heart further..”, Donghae grinned, “but I just want you to know that.. Himdeulgo uhryuhwuhdo, neul naega isseulgge..”, he said it while added a sincere smile on his face.
Eunhyuk really lost his words now. Whole Korea knew that he was a very good rapper with his ability in played words, but now-he was not able to speak even a letter. How couldn’t he realize that there was a man standing there waiting for him? How could he kept on wanting hopelessly a love that he could never win? He loved Kang-In, but he loved his leader too, that there was no way for him to betray Eeteuk. And now, a gift from God has been there, loving him.
“Donghae..”, said Eunhyuk, “may I take may time to think about this?”
The handsome guy smiled and nodded, “Please do it.”, Dongae felt much better seeing Eunhyuk stopped crying, ‘I’ve been waiting for you, and I always do.’
“I want to buy something for celebrating them.”, Eunhyuk gave his bright smile to Donghae. He was relieved, that broken smile has been replaced by a honest and beautiful smile as always. Donghae felt his heart beat faster when the older man grabbed his right hand, “c’mon. You have to go and help me choosing the gift.”
Donghae nodded, “Okay, we shall go then. In your opinion, what stuff is suitable for them?”, he thought for several seconds.
“Hmm.. Let me think..”, Eunhyuk looked at Donghae with nasty eyes, “maybe.. A pack of condoms and a bottle of lubricants?”
Donghae bulged out of his eyes, “Wha-“
“Kidding!”, the cute man laughed and ran from Donghae’s soft slap, “I’m very grateful if they’re happy.”, said him in such a peaceful tone. Donghae grinned.
“So am I, Hyukjae.”, he rubbed the brown hair softly, “I’m so grateful for seeing your happy smile like this.”
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End
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Saranghae = I love you
Himdeulgo uhryuhwuhdo, neul naega isseulgge = no matter how weary and tired you are, I will always be by your side
What a sweet Donghae. Go and catch your love! Ganbatte, Donghae! XD
Muaa...I feel that my english is so so horrible..Hope you get the main idea, guys. Please leave some comments and constictive critics, it’ll help a lot :)