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I ended up getting really stressed out this afternoon, and I'm not entirely sure why. So much so that my eyes starting watering. A bunch of stuff is adding up, I guess. I had some supplies to buy... I can't buy my books until my loan money comes in. Assuming my loans went through, but why wouldn't they? I know my parents' did. I was afraid I'd see Ben on campus, and I really don't want to deal with that. The info fair was yesterday and today, so I avoided campus because he has a club and a booth. I saw him there last year, and it was really painful. I found out that my adrenal glands are officially in the toilet again. And the doctor's in Seattle. I hope he can send me medicine without me needing to see him again. Shit shit shit. Now I feel like a walking time bomb, and I'm more stressed out from being stressed out because I don't have any stress hormones to be stressed out with! Gah.
Mostly, I think I had a mini panic attack about Ben. I really can't deal him.
Mostly, I think I had a mini panic attack about Ben. I really can't deal him.