Wednesday ...
hey people. i just got home from school, we had a half day today. so it was pretty sweet. i didnt go to first hour cause i didn't do my homework in that class yesterday so my mom let me sleep in so i have and extra day to do it. which is sweet cause i have a bad grade in that class so getting a 0 would be bad. plus our classes were only like 25 min long. so it didn't really matter. my mom is just cool like that. lol. but other than skipping 1st hour, my day was pretty crappy so far. school was really boring, and i didn't sleep at all last night so i'm really tired. i also feel really hurt if you couldn't already tell. i guess i'll just say tell how i fell on here, since we don't ever talk. some of my friends are like turning on me. just some of the comments being said, and not talking to me it just kinda shows. and i really don't think the'll understand how i feel untill they're in my shoes or at least take the time to talk to me. i feel really low, like nobody cares about me, or cares what i'm feeling right now. like can't u take 2 min out of ur life to talk to me to know what i'm feeling b4 u assume things about me. i've been crying alot laitly. i wish i wouldn't but it just hurts. i thought i new my friends, but aparently i don't. quote... "but i really think that if people cant except the fact that me and ashley are closer friends now i think the should just leave me alone!! " yeah i gave away the names, but i think they knew who they were. i think its great that u guys are best friends now. i have no problem with it. but u think i'm jealous of ur frienship and trying to take u two apart. see thats what u guys think, and ur wrong, i'm not. i just feel like u guys have no time for me. i understand that u have ur other friends, and ashley her boyfriend, but that doesn't mean u have to stop being my friend. i've been trying so hard to get together, suggesting things we can do together or setting up times that we can do something, but you always seem to have something going on. its getting to the point where i feel like i'm forcing u guys to make time for me. which is wrong. because u guys are like ok... when can we fit sarah in? its just not right, thats not what friends do. but i guess what i'm trying to get at is, if u really want me to leave you alone i will, i'll stop pushing to try and do stuff with you. it will be your choice to make plans with me... i guess thats all i have to say. i'll talk to ya later. God Bless. bye