confused..dont know what to do..help!
well its like 1:10 and im crying and i dont know what to do
i love kurt
but i dont
i never see kurt
i never talk to kurt
i never get calls returned from kurt
i dont know what to do...
i talked to him..this is what i said
wAtEvFlOaTuRbOaT: ...im crying right now..and i dont know..its like not working between us..and i cant believe i would ever say this..but like i dont feel anything between us..i mean i never talk to you..we never hang out..i call you but your never home..
wAtEvFlOaTuRbOaT: ..
butt milk 4 all: u want to hang out tomorow just the two of us then'
yea well that is what i wanted him to say..like
i do wan to hang out with him
i just know
that its not going to happen
and i dont know if i still want to be with him
but i cant decide right now...to much on my mind
and than he says..which makes this even more fucking hard to decided
butt milk 4 all: u dont no, i fuck up friendships, relationships, family get togethers, my grade in school, my way of life, just everything, i really dont see myself in the future being who i want to be, i dont see me being any where close to helping someones life, or making there life a better one, or anything like that, i really dont think i can help myself get back on track with grades, i just dono how to do anything anymore
butt milk 4 all: i find myself crying every other night noing that i fuck everything up for me and everyone else
ahh..this totally sucks..and im not liking this one bit...
i think right now..its best if i go to camp ..apart from kurt
as in
were together ..but not..
so than ill get my mind off him
and than realize that i miss him((hopefully))
and want to stay with him..
but everything i want or do..doesnt really happen
or work...
HELP ME!
i love kurt
but i dont
i never see kurt
i never talk to kurt
i never get calls returned from kurt
i dont know what to do...
i talked to him..this is what i said
wAtEvFlOaTuRbOaT: ...im crying right now..and i dont know..its like not working between us..and i cant believe i would ever say this..but like i dont feel anything between us..i mean i never talk to you..we never hang out..i call you but your never home..
wAtEvFlOaTuRbOaT: ..
butt milk 4 all: u want to hang out tomorow just the two of us then'
yea well that is what i wanted him to say..like
i do wan to hang out with him
i just know
that its not going to happen
and i dont know if i still want to be with him
but i cant decide right now...to much on my mind
and than he says..which makes this even more fucking hard to decided
butt milk 4 all: u dont no, i fuck up friendships, relationships, family get togethers, my grade in school, my way of life, just everything, i really dont see myself in the future being who i want to be, i dont see me being any where close to helping someones life, or making there life a better one, or anything like that, i really dont think i can help myself get back on track with grades, i just dono how to do anything anymore
butt milk 4 all: i find myself crying every other night noing that i fuck everything up for me and everyone else
ahh..this totally sucks..and im not liking this one bit...
i think right now..its best if i go to camp ..apart from kurt
as in
were together ..but not..
so than ill get my mind off him
and than realize that i miss him((hopefully))
and want to stay with him..
but everything i want or do..doesnt really happen
or work...
HELP ME!