..so this is christmas..and what have you done..another year over..and a new one just begun..
I’ve just read “The House of God” by Samuel Shem, and as ridiculous as it is to be up this late on Christmas Eve (correction: Christmas DAY), I feel a need to vent. If you don’t want to hear about med, then stop reading now~
Studying med has done a lot for me. The human body is endlessly fascinating, and I am constantly surprised and thankful to have the opportunity to be learning how to treat it when things go wrong. At times I can’t believe how damn lucky I am. But there are a lot of things med hasn’t done for me. It hasn’t made me a better person. It hasn’t made me a more altruistic person. In fact, it’s probably done the opposite by desensitizing me to it all. I feel less connected, less empathetic, and less human compared with when I started out as a bright eyed and idealistic school leaver. I don’t want to end up some bitter old doctor scum with no friends and no personal life and no idea how to relate to real world people with real world problems. I don't want to be competitive and paranoid and suspicious of everyone around me. If I had known in y12 what I know now, things would surely have been different. I probably would still have chosen med but maybe I would have handled it better.
All in all, I don’t really know where I’m headed these next few years but hopefully, somewhere along the line, I might become all those things I once thought I would be ;)
And to finish on a brighter note, i really, truly, wish you all a...
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
P.S. 1 DAY!
Studying med has done a lot for me. The human body is endlessly fascinating, and I am constantly surprised and thankful to have the opportunity to be learning how to treat it when things go wrong. At times I can’t believe how damn lucky I am. But there are a lot of things med hasn’t done for me. It hasn’t made me a better person. It hasn’t made me a more altruistic person. In fact, it’s probably done the opposite by desensitizing me to it all. I feel less connected, less empathetic, and less human compared with when I started out as a bright eyed and idealistic school leaver. I don’t want to end up some bitter old doctor scum with no friends and no personal life and no idea how to relate to real world people with real world problems. I don't want to be competitive and paranoid and suspicious of everyone around me. If I had known in y12 what I know now, things would surely have been different. I probably would still have chosen med but maybe I would have handled it better.
All in all, I don’t really know where I’m headed these next few years but hopefully, somewhere along the line, I might become all those things I once thought I would be ;)
And to finish on a brighter note, i really, truly, wish you all a...
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
P.S. 1 DAY!