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To : Anyone that is coming to my reCONnection this summer, for 4 fun days of camping and finding lost souls, please email me : scrumptious.reagent which will be @gmail.com <---(trying to avoid spam) I will declare here to clear up anyone CONfusion that this is 21+ only. Sorry kiddies, but we's like to get our drink on
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A Dreamer's dream... [16 Mar 2003|12:00am]
...So I had this incredible dream last night, it's been a long time since I had a decent one that I remembered most of when I woke up. I used to have vision dreams, this wasn't one of them, it felt real in a as seen on TV sort of way but that was it.
I was at a Unitarian church, but I wasn't, like I was stuck in time between the past and the future. Almost everyone from my old crew was there, the only ones I couldn't find were Dave and Tracy, but they could have been off getting nookie somewhere (not with each other, presumedly), I give both of them the benefit of being alive for a long time... So besides all my friends being there (which is a reoccuring dream I haven't had for a long time), there were all these new kids I've never seen before. They were in the church, but I could see through the wall and see them all piled in the same room. Most of them were naked, but I saw it in an artistic sense rather than sexual. Guess I might have gotten a little more mature, if not older. The funny thing was all the kids from my old crew weren't in church, it was a bit like an Adventure Con, only instead of cabins they were all in these tiny tents, big enough for one or two people and that's it... So all my old friends were segregated across the grounds, in little groups of one or two, but I couldn't see through the tents, it was hard to understand who was in which tent... Everyone young and old was having fun, but the young had something extra, whether from innocence or the strength of their combined energy I don't know, maybe both. The older kids were a bit more subdued, mingling with each other but not really talking, and I got the distinct impression a lot of them couldn't see me. But it wasn't that they were ignoring me, I just wasn't there. I've always been a voyeur anyways, wasn't so bad...
We tried to get a group picture, with all the young and old generations together, but it wouldn't work, we could get all the young together, and all the old together, but never at the same time. Rather easily symbolic, I'm sure... I was trying to help make it happen but it wasn't meant to be so I let it go and just hung out with whom I could find...
I also snuck into the younger group, they were watching something on TV, I think I saw David Bowie, but it didn't matter. I felt like I was welcome there but there was a difference since I was older... I snuck up behind one of the kids (a girl, I didn't get a look at her), gave her a big bear hug from behind, and snuck back out...
Other sidenotes of the dream, I went into my tent to see if anyone was waiting for me, and my sleeping bag was red, which is odd to me, and completely covered in black ants, which seemed less odd. Someone older, I can't remember who, warned me about them, and helped me shake them off, but it still felt icky so I didn't sleep.
Also, most of the dream happened at night, but for a moment it turned daytime, and Chuck (one of the old old folks that used to run the retreats) showed up, he was walking with a limp and a cane but he had this big felt hat on, he looked goofy but young at heart. I'm not sure why but when I saw him I got really sad, like I missed him a lot, so I ran up and gave him a huge hug. I still feel a little bit sad, if anyone knows of anything that happened to him please let me know...
So the dream probably doesn't seem very exciting to anyone not involved in my past, but it was good for me, helped me realize that I can't save all my friends (which I knew but can now let go), I can never have back what I had with them but I can pass it on to people I meet, especially kids. I hope to get involved with a local chapter of Unitarians, time shall tell...
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