Do I think too much?
So it's been 5 days since I have seen my supposed bf and if you count today 3 days since I have talked to him. Now according to my sissy(who in fact is quite wise in these situations) I am overreacting a bit because I am worried. The last conversation I had with my supposed bf was not wonderful, we had a slight argument. He told that he would call me back in an hour and half and didn't end up calling til 3 hours later. I am not very good at disguising my feelings so when he called, he kept asking if I was ok. I told him fine why did he keep asking and he said I sounded weird. I tend to get this "tone" even when I don't won't people to know I am annoyed or upset. That's just me...I don't always tell people how I feel though a lot of them say it's obivious they KNOW. Anyway, he wasn't feeling the best and he told me he was going to take a nap and when he woke up he would call me if he wanted to hang out. I was like fine whatever and he was like are you mad at me? I kept telling him no and he needed to do what he had to do. He was like your mad, and I kept telling him no, don't worry about. He was sick and he needed to rest. Well the conversation ended kind of abruptly when I told him I knew he was sick and he needed to do what he had to do. I told him to call me when he felt better and said bye and hung up. I didn't wait for his reply.
Later I was watching the hockey game and analyzing my stupid behavior...I had, had a bad day at work and was feeling crabby. I am under a lot of stress this week with the wedding and all the things that go along with that.(Those of you who know the circumstances understand) I was disappointed because since he wasn't feeling well I knew that I probably wouldn't see him this week unless he goes to the party Friday night. All these things of course were swimming around in my head and I think my reaction to him on Monday was not valid. In fact, I pretty much acted like an idiot in my opinion. So after second period in the game I called him back...of course, he didn't answer his phone, but he could have been sleeping. I apologized for the way I acted told him I had , had a bad day at work and I took my frustrations out on him when I shouldn't have. I told him I knew he was sick and my main concern was that he feel better. I also, told him to call when he felt better.
Well Tuesday I know he has class and work all day so, I wasn't expecting a phone call. Yesterday, he had class and worked, but sometimes I hear from him. Still nothing...I called and left him a msg. I'm thinking about you...I miss you...Good luck on your test tomorrow...Hopefully I will talk to you soon. Didn't hear anything so, here I sit today and I still haven't heard from him... Now I do know he works and has class again today so, I should give him the benefit of the doubt. I don't know though I feel like somehow I blew it...like he doesn't even want to talk to me. My sissy of course, told me if he is going to get that mad at me about me getting a little cranky one day he isn't worth it. She told me she thinks he is a nice guy, but if he never calls again it's his loss. She also, told me I need to stop overreacting. That's just me though. I have never been able to not analyze my relationships. *LOL* I'm kind of like Sara Jessica Parker's character in Sex in the City. I am always questioning my actions and my relationships. Trying to figure out what went wrong and what I can do to fix them the next time. I not really sure how I can change that.
So basically what this whole journal entry is about is analyzing me. My actions, my feelings, and my paranoias. I really like this guy and if I blew it by one day's stupid actions I guess we both lose out in the end. If you any thoughts on me or this situation I really would like to hear them? Be brutal if you have to...
Later I was watching the hockey game and analyzing my stupid behavior...I had, had a bad day at work and was feeling crabby. I am under a lot of stress this week with the wedding and all the things that go along with that.(Those of you who know the circumstances understand) I was disappointed because since he wasn't feeling well I knew that I probably wouldn't see him this week unless he goes to the party Friday night. All these things of course were swimming around in my head and I think my reaction to him on Monday was not valid. In fact, I pretty much acted like an idiot in my opinion. So after second period in the game I called him back...of course, he didn't answer his phone, but he could have been sleeping. I apologized for the way I acted told him I had , had a bad day at work and I took my frustrations out on him when I shouldn't have. I told him I knew he was sick and my main concern was that he feel better. I also, told him to call when he felt better.
Well Tuesday I know he has class and work all day so, I wasn't expecting a phone call. Yesterday, he had class and worked, but sometimes I hear from him. Still nothing...I called and left him a msg. I'm thinking about you...I miss you...Good luck on your test tomorrow...Hopefully I will talk to you soon. Didn't hear anything so, here I sit today and I still haven't heard from him... Now I do know he works and has class again today so, I should give him the benefit of the doubt. I don't know though I feel like somehow I blew it...like he doesn't even want to talk to me. My sissy of course, told me if he is going to get that mad at me about me getting a little cranky one day he isn't worth it. She told me she thinks he is a nice guy, but if he never calls again it's his loss. She also, told me I need to stop overreacting. That's just me though. I have never been able to not analyze my relationships. *LOL* I'm kind of like Sara Jessica Parker's character in Sex in the City. I am always questioning my actions and my relationships. Trying to figure out what went wrong and what I can do to fix them the next time. I not really sure how I can change that.
So basically what this whole journal entry is about is analyzing me. My actions, my feelings, and my paranoias. I really like this guy and if I blew it by one day's stupid actions I guess we both lose out in the end. If you any thoughts on me or this situation I really would like to hear them? Be brutal if you have to...