Life is beautiful
December is the month that I love to drive around aimlessly the most. I have a CD that I've had for years thats is full of depressing music and I pull it out every December and I just drive and feel the cool air on my face and have this CD on blast. I listen to depressing music not to feel depressed but so I can feel lucky that I never have to feel anything like the pain that they feel. The CD has songs like:
Ben Folds Five - Brick
Coldplay - Sparks
Counting Crows - A Long December
Tonic - If you could only see
The Cure - Love Song
and 7 more that I cant really remember but I know all the words to all these songs when they're on.
I've never taken anyone on these drives with me but I think I will this year, whoever wants to go. I feel really close to some of my close friends and I am so happy around this time of year.
I am so lucky to have lived a life like mine. I've had my share of suffering and I still suffer every morning but I am so blessed to have something so insignificant as my source of suffering. I have always had somebody that loves me and thats the best feeling in the world.
I am not afriad to mess up either because my family is always there to have my back and forgive me if I mess up with them. I want so bad to be sucessful so I can ease the financial stress on the people that mean the most to me in life. I feel like I'm the hope of the family and I have so many people that dont need to depend on me that I want to. I want everyone to be as happy as me, and I do always get what I want.
Ben Folds Five - Brick
Coldplay - Sparks
Counting Crows - A Long December
Tonic - If you could only see
The Cure - Love Song
and 7 more that I cant really remember but I know all the words to all these songs when they're on.
I've never taken anyone on these drives with me but I think I will this year, whoever wants to go. I feel really close to some of my close friends and I am so happy around this time of year.
I am so lucky to have lived a life like mine. I've had my share of suffering and I still suffer every morning but I am so blessed to have something so insignificant as my source of suffering. I have always had somebody that loves me and thats the best feeling in the world.
I am not afriad to mess up either because my family is always there to have my back and forgive me if I mess up with them. I want so bad to be sucessful so I can ease the financial stress on the people that mean the most to me in life. I feel like I'm the hope of the family and I have so many people that dont need to depend on me that I want to. I want everyone to be as happy as me, and I do always get what I want.