BitchFest '06
So, I am starting to wonder if moving away from New Orleans has reallyhelped me at all or am I just living a bigger lie. Not only do I feelthat I have not taken a new step forward in life but, have taken manysteps back. I am back to working late(very late) weekend night shiftswhich leave me with no life out side of the internet to be had.
One of the main reasons I moved back here, was to reconnect withfriends and family which I have not seen in over 10 years but, with theway my life is right now things are worse off then living 2000 milesaway from them all.
Even with living with Abel and Camille I think I only see them at most1.5 hours a day and that is only if I stay up to talk to them before Igo to bed and maybe a few mins. during the afternoon when I am gettingup for work.
I wanted my nephews to know their uncle but, I don't even think I seethe rest of the family up here for more the 2 hours a month. This isnot what I signed up for.
Maybe it is a good thing all the bars a closed before I get off work up here....
I hate whining and bitching but, I guess this is just as good as any other place to get shit off my chest.
It makes me really sad to think about how, right now in my life, I washappier in New Orleans then I am right now up here in Vermont. What thefuck, this is not what I wanted to happen. Did I really do the rightthing to move back up? Was this really for the best? Was I really justrunning away from problems and not dealing with them? What have I done?I am so lost.
If your lucky you will not hear any more bitching from me for anotheryear...sorry if you wasted your time reading this....Later.
One of the main reasons I moved back here, was to reconnect withfriends and family which I have not seen in over 10 years but, with theway my life is right now things are worse off then living 2000 milesaway from them all.
Even with living with Abel and Camille I think I only see them at most1.5 hours a day and that is only if I stay up to talk to them before Igo to bed and maybe a few mins. during the afternoon when I am gettingup for work.
I wanted my nephews to know their uncle but, I don't even think I seethe rest of the family up here for more the 2 hours a month. This isnot what I signed up for.
Maybe it is a good thing all the bars a closed before I get off work up here....
I hate whining and bitching but, I guess this is just as good as any other place to get shit off my chest.
It makes me really sad to think about how, right now in my life, I washappier in New Orleans then I am right now up here in Vermont. What thefuck, this is not what I wanted to happen. Did I really do the rightthing to move back up? Was this really for the best? Was I really justrunning away from problems and not dealing with them? What have I done?I am so lost.
If your lucky you will not hear any more bitching from me for anotheryear...sorry if you wasted your time reading this....Later.