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well......i havent written in a while so im sorry....i know you all were sad :) lol. well there is much to be said but i dunno how long i will have since nia is sleeping and i dunno when she will wake up. ok here it goes :)
today i start work :) im kinda excited because its only going to be untill dec. 23 and i will be getting out of the house and be around people i like :) i get to start off at the pay i left at which was $7.00 so yay! and nothing changed while i was gone so i dont have to retrain and relearn everything!
SEE DAMN IT....I SAY SOMETHING ABOUT NIA SLEEPING AND NOW LOOKED WHAT HAPPENES.......SHE IS UP!!!!! LMAO :) SEE HOW FAR I GOT UNTILL SHE WOKE UP......LIKE NOWHERE.....WITHIN MINUTES OF ME SAYING SOMTHING SHE WAKES UP!!!! MY BABY IS CRAZY :) LOL
jzza nc mmmmmmfdx sez ff44ryyyyj nhj hhhhhh bvhbb <---nis wanted to write an entry with mommy :) lol
well today i decided that i was going to stop breastfeeding :*( im so sad..i dont know why...but it is for the best and i gave her the best start in life by breastfeeding her for 3 months exclusivly and not introducing formula until 3 monts old, but she still got mostly breastmilk so i did great for her. im the best mommy for doing that....can you see that im still trying to convince myselft that im not a horrible mommy for doing this! for all the girls that read this and decided to breastfeed you will understand why im flipping out about this...this is such a huge thing for me im crying my eyes out now while writting this! i just look over to my right and see a bottle of formula mixed with expressed brest milk and i know that i will never ever breastfeed my daughter again and it hurts.....but it will be ok...i did great :) she loves me no matter what i do as long as im feeding her that is all that matters when she is hungry :) im not crazy i swear
today i start work :) im kinda excited because its only going to be untill dec. 23 and i will be getting out of the house and be around people i like :) i get to start off at the pay i left at which was $7.00 so yay! and nothing changed while i was gone so i dont have to retrain and relearn everything!
SEE DAMN IT....I SAY SOMETHING ABOUT NIA SLEEPING AND NOW LOOKED WHAT HAPPENES.......SHE IS UP!!!!! LMAO :) SEE HOW FAR I GOT UNTILL SHE WOKE UP......LIKE NOWHERE.....WITHIN MINUTES OF ME SAYING SOMTHING SHE WAKES UP!!!! MY BABY IS CRAZY :) LOL
jzza nc mmmmmmfdx sez ff44ryyyyj nhj hhhhhh bvhbb <---nis wanted to write an entry with mommy :) lol
well today i decided that i was going to stop breastfeeding :*( im so sad..i dont know why...but it is for the best and i gave her the best start in life by breastfeeding her for 3 months exclusivly and not introducing formula until 3 monts old, but she still got mostly breastmilk so i did great for her. im the best mommy for doing that....can you see that im still trying to convince myselft that im not a horrible mommy for doing this! for all the girls that read this and decided to breastfeed you will understand why im flipping out about this...this is such a huge thing for me im crying my eyes out now while writting this! i just look over to my right and see a bottle of formula mixed with expressed brest milk and i know that i will never ever breastfeed my daughter again and it hurts.....but it will be ok...i did great :) she loves me no matter what i do as long as im feeding her that is all that matters when she is hungry :) im not crazy i swear