So I'm back
I keep thinking of deleting my journal but I decided not to.
I can't sleep as usual so I'd figure I'd write some of my thoughts.
Yea ok, I think that I think way too much about the future. I mean, let the pieces fall where they may. Shit happens for a reason, but I'm a curious person, and us curious people always have our minds going about something.
So anyways, I have been thinking alot lately about my life. I feel I have gotten absolutely nowhere:
-I have worked at the same place for 5 years(i apply for jobs but no one calls, just fast food joints)
-I have been denied into my program twice. I don't know how long I can keep going on that.
-Everyone I know makes more money than me...I mean it seems like everyone is settled down with their lives except me
-I don't really talk to alot of people anymore. Makes me sad.
I'm 22 years old. Why the fuck do I feel so old! I try to work so hard and to be positive about everything, I study, I work, then in the process I know less and more less people. By the time my hard work pays off I feel like I won't be able to see it until I'm 30.
I only know a few people who go to school, and it kinda makes me feel lonely. I'm off in my own world just trying to do my own thing. Some people I know got their jobs laid out, they move out, some are talking about marriage, and some are popping out a kid or two. And here I am, making shit for money, not even working full time. I don't know why places won't hire me...they want experience, but how the hell do you get that when no one will hire you! Well maybe things will change around for me. Maybe some good things will happen soon. I just gotta keep going.
Ugghh I hate feeling like this because I hate coming off as depressed but I'm starting to feel like some kind of lonely, sad person. There is more shit that happened tonight that adds to it but we'll get into that maybe next entry or something.
I can't sleep as usual so I'd figure I'd write some of my thoughts.
Yea ok, I think that I think way too much about the future. I mean, let the pieces fall where they may. Shit happens for a reason, but I'm a curious person, and us curious people always have our minds going about something.
So anyways, I have been thinking alot lately about my life. I feel I have gotten absolutely nowhere:
-I have worked at the same place for 5 years(i apply for jobs but no one calls, just fast food joints)
-I have been denied into my program twice. I don't know how long I can keep going on that.
-Everyone I know makes more money than me...I mean it seems like everyone is settled down with their lives except me
-I don't really talk to alot of people anymore. Makes me sad.
I'm 22 years old. Why the fuck do I feel so old! I try to work so hard and to be positive about everything, I study, I work, then in the process I know less and more less people. By the time my hard work pays off I feel like I won't be able to see it until I'm 30.
I only know a few people who go to school, and it kinda makes me feel lonely. I'm off in my own world just trying to do my own thing. Some people I know got their jobs laid out, they move out, some are talking about marriage, and some are popping out a kid or two. And here I am, making shit for money, not even working full time. I don't know why places won't hire me...they want experience, but how the hell do you get that when no one will hire you! Well maybe things will change around for me. Maybe some good things will happen soon. I just gotta keep going.
Ugghh I hate feeling like this because I hate coming off as depressed but I'm starting to feel like some kind of lonely, sad person. There is more shit that happened tonight that adds to it but we'll get into that maybe next entry or something.