Jan 23, 2006 16:13
For the past couple of months I've been smoking again. I won't sit here and make excuses as to why i had to start again because i know any excuse isn't acceptable. So I stopped again. So far its been a week. I really think this time i can really stop. I'm not one who really cares about what people think of me but when everyone found out i stopped they all had nice things to say and were very happy that i wasn't going to smoke anymore, and i hate letting people down. Ok i'm done, i'll swear to anything that i will never touch another cigarette again! its a promise. oh and im sorry too.
But anyways, i'm fucking tired. I went to the scary gynecologist this morning and got probed in my holes and it was fucking cold as hell, god forbid they turn the heat on. Anyways, it turns out i lost 13 pounds. that's pretty sweet but now i gotta go get some of my blood taken out on friday. i didn't even do anything really but i lost weight. hmmm. i hope i'm not gonna die!
Time to work, goodbye.