hello darkness my old friend.
well its been quite away. but things have definitely changed i suppose but everythign is going pretty rad. Summer is nothing like it was last year. no hang out sessions. just lots of skate sessions instead for me. Miami for a week was pretty rad. Skating everyday. it was enjoyable definitely. sun was out all day everyday. girls were beautiful and mons was amazing. Ive been working a lot only so i can travel as much as i do. Ill be seeing the CURE in DC on the 6th then doing a 5boro skate demo on the 7th in PA so that weekend is full of trips then i get home for 5 days and them im on tour with 5boro for 10 days. im psyched gonna be amazing. were heading to through the Northeast (West NY, VT, Conn, RI, NH, Mass). stoked. then in the beginning of sept im living in NYC for a month with Gabrielle who i love very much. so life and skateboardign is real good. im riding for etnies now so im stoked on that too. well...
anyways the whole poitn of this journal for right now is to let out something that i never really thought i would say or do. But i know people have said something about it or been let down about it but its my life so whatever. But yes I drink occasionally now. There is no reason why i really feel ashamed about my choice to drink every now and then. I lived my life for seven years being straight edge/drug free but that life is apart of my past. it wasnt no little phase like you think, it was something I admired and i loved. I will never forget that. People change and its time to move on. Ive been doing other things and right now im happier than ive been in a long time. I just got real tired of being so close minded. I know that drinking can be stupid but at times i enjoy it. Its not like im some wastoid. ill have a drink like once a week. i am responsible and i never have gotten really drunk. i dont drink when i know im driving. If people choose to call me a sellout or whatever, do it i dont care. True till 21 or so they say. I gave in on something i believed so highly against at a point in my life. It sucks i know, but what can i do. i criticized people for giving in and now im one of them but I realized two years ago that being edge was something that I didnt care to be apart of because i knew i was changing and my life was going in another direction than hardcore and straight edge. Well I only have one life to live so im gonna do what i feel is right and if someone is gonna put me down for that then thats fine. Im still here having my own fun living my life and 100% enjoying it. Sorry my beliefs change but fuck im having fun and thats all that matters to me. I respect your beliefs in not drinking. but if you wish to criticize me thats understandable but dont do like i did and not understand where im coming from. people change and do different things.
anyways the whole poitn of this journal for right now is to let out something that i never really thought i would say or do. But i know people have said something about it or been let down about it but its my life so whatever. But yes I drink occasionally now. There is no reason why i really feel ashamed about my choice to drink every now and then. I lived my life for seven years being straight edge/drug free but that life is apart of my past. it wasnt no little phase like you think, it was something I admired and i loved. I will never forget that. People change and its time to move on. Ive been doing other things and right now im happier than ive been in a long time. I just got real tired of being so close minded. I know that drinking can be stupid but at times i enjoy it. Its not like im some wastoid. ill have a drink like once a week. i am responsible and i never have gotten really drunk. i dont drink when i know im driving. If people choose to call me a sellout or whatever, do it i dont care. True till 21 or so they say. I gave in on something i believed so highly against at a point in my life. It sucks i know, but what can i do. i criticized people for giving in and now im one of them but I realized two years ago that being edge was something that I didnt care to be apart of because i knew i was changing and my life was going in another direction than hardcore and straight edge. Well I only have one life to live so im gonna do what i feel is right and if someone is gonna put me down for that then thats fine. Im still here having my own fun living my life and 100% enjoying it. Sorry my beliefs change but fuck im having fun and thats all that matters to me. I respect your beliefs in not drinking. but if you wish to criticize me thats understandable but dont do like i did and not understand where im coming from. people change and do different things.