hmmm
I think ive learned a lot in the past couple of months...a lot about me as a person, a boyfriend, a friend, and a son. When people say money changes you...i finally know what they mean by that...because i have changed possibly for the better..but not necessarily. Approx two months ago my life was completely different then it was today. I was prepared to settle down, get married live the rest of my life with one single person. what changed you might ask? I guess i had received a taste of life. a taste i havent had in years. it seems like it was best for the both we both moved on to bigger and better things. Things between me and my father have gotton better as well. probably because i can now help the household again financially. I still miss my mother, that will never change and will always leave a hole in my heart. As a friend ive learned some things..you can try to be the best you can but sometimes in the end that still isn't enough..sometimes things are just out of your control..it sucks yea but what can i say? all i can say is that i tried my best and hopefully some good came of it. i have a feeling things might change drastically in the next couple of days/weeks. other peoples outlooks on life..its going to be rough but im finally at the level where i can take it. i do know one thing tho..i did this to myself..ever since my first serious relationship in 2002-2003/4 i have sabotaged everything ive done...burnign my bridges as i go. hopefully one day i will learn a lesosn from all of this..all i can do right now is sit back...and enjoy the ride