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So life goes on and I have proven I am losing my grip on things. I cheated on Steven. Didn't mean to. I was drunk. Really drunk. I was at the neighbors house drinking and drank to much. My friend Lola went off to work thinking I was good staying with her man and his cuz. Well I guess it wasn't. I had text Steven to let him know where I was. And he was pissed off at me so he didn't go over. I was pissed he never came to let me know he was home. So meh I ended up messing around with the cuz. I was hoping this would wake me up and I would get my shit straight. But no. I am still a mess. Gonna stay way from drinking that heavly for awhile. Steven stayed with me. For some reason he stayed with me. Yeah he knows. He decided to go get me when I was already in the back room without any pants. Then he called my mom and Naomi. Naomi is all pissed off at me like I cheated on her. It dosnt concern her. But all of a sudden she believes it dose, cause Steven called her. I could kill him for calling and letting everyone know. But I fucked up too. So we are going to try and work on things. I am not to sure what we are going to do. Or if things are going to be alright. But I am going to try to figure shit out. I know I have to figure out shit for myself before I can do what I need to do to fix things with us. Meh I am so confused right now. But what do we do? I just don't know. Nope just don't know. Well I guess I will get going for now.