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I am not having a good week hell month. It has just been one bullshit storme after another. At the moment I wish I could take my babies and go hide in a whole where no one would fine us. At the moment fuck everyone else. Im done.
I need a job, anyone know of one at night? Hell just one that pays would be nice.
You know I put people first, no matter what. Even if I am pissed off, even if you have been treating me like dog shit. I will put you first. Because that is just the person I am. I have never had it in me to hurt people. If I hurt you it breaks my heart, if I hurt you and I care about you it just about kills me. Maybe its time I just do what I want to do, what I need to do, what makes me happy. And if I hurt people while I do it then so be it. Its not my problem anymore. I am tired of putting up with crap that makes me unhappy. Im tired.
I haven't wanted to die in a really long time. Been depressed yes, but not this bad. Now I do, I just want to go. End it all. It all hurts so much. Im tired.
I need a job, anyone know of one at night? Hell just one that pays would be nice.
You know I put people first, no matter what. Even if I am pissed off, even if you have been treating me like dog shit. I will put you first. Because that is just the person I am. I have never had it in me to hurt people. If I hurt you it breaks my heart, if I hurt you and I care about you it just about kills me. Maybe its time I just do what I want to do, what I need to do, what makes me happy. And if I hurt people while I do it then so be it. Its not my problem anymore. I am tired of putting up with crap that makes me unhappy. Im tired.
I haven't wanted to die in a really long time. Been depressed yes, but not this bad. Now I do, I just want to go. End it all. It all hurts so much. Im tired.