Nothing lasts
We went to busch gardens. we go to a lot of places. Things just aren't as exiting or fun anymore. Maybe I'm finally growing up, but i don't think thats it. Maybe im just totally bummed out cuz it started raining on my parade at that coooool theme park, but i don't really think i would get upset over that. I had about as much fun as the circumstances would permit, i suppose. I'll leave it at that. Actually no. I wont leave it at that because I know exactly whats wrong. Things are changing and i don't know if its for the best. I've been away for a year and a half and i miss the way things used to be. Things arent ever going to be the same, I know that. I just dont like it. Relationships with everyone seem either one sided or fake. I know people care about me and i know about them but damage has been done leaving the connection (if any) feeling superficial. Sometimes I hate this school for opening my eyes so wide. I wish i could just close them again and be oblivious to the obvious.