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so i've been running latley. and if you know me...you know usually i'd say i hate to run. it makes me tired. but recently i started to run every single day. at first it was for my image..i personally and not thrilled with how i look right now..and running every day and eating right seems the best way to fix that.... but as i have continued to run..other motives for doing it have arisen. when i am running..its just me....no one else is around...there are no problems in the world for those moments that i run all around the pllace where i grew up. everything disappears for a chunk of time and every thing is right. i forget abuot those sad conversations i had last night that could potentially screw things up for some people...i forget about the problems i have with faith.....i forget about the fight i had with my sister or my parents..i forget abbout the annoyances from everyone around me.....for a period of time..its gone..my mind is focused on running and only that. i see now why cross country runners do what they do...well maybe they do just like to run...cause most of them are naturally runners....i am definently not a born runner..at all...but honestly..i am coming to actually love it. now im not going out to join the team..yah right...plus..adding competition to running..for me...would be wrong. cause that would add stress...and if you know me....i am a very easily stressed out person..i worry too mcuh....and now i've found an out...its amazing...and i guess in some ways..i learn things about myself while i am running..sounds weird..but it erally is true......and honestly..i feel a relationship with God improving as i run too..because i learn to appreciate the beauty of His creation..and it is like He led me to run..He getsit..He knew it was an out for me..and it feels as though every step i take as i run...i leave struggles behind me and even happy things behind me..but it is all left until i stop and then it all catches up with me until i run to let it go again....
"There are clubs you can't belong to, neighborhoods you can't live in, schools you can't get into, but the roads are always open."
Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize.
1 Corinthians 9:24
Running is a road to self-awareness and reliance,
You can push yourself to extremes and learn the harsh
reality of your physical and mental limitations, Or coast
quietly down a solitary path watching the earth spin
beneath your feet.
But when you are through, exhilarated and exhausted,
at least for a moment everything seems right with the world"
I always loved running... it was something you could do by yourself, and under your own power. You could go in any direction, fast or slow as you wanted, fighting the wind if you felt like it, seeking out new sights just on the strength of your feet and the courage of your lungs.
Everyone who has run knows that its most important value is in removing tension and allowing a release from whatever other cares the day may bring.
If the miles behind me could be put into words before you…
you would feel my efforts, my struggles, my desires,
most of all you would see my joy…
Watch me from afar run the trails and hills
and miles upon miles and you will see…