Everything's Not Lost
I'm feeling quite conent. And happy. And for once I can't really pin it on something.
I think most of this is taking a step back, and just taking everything in. Feeling things. Seeing things. Absorbing things and letting them sink in and get to every deep tiny niche of you that you try to hide.
I may not know what will happen next, but I'm okay with that.
For the first time in a while, I'm happy to be where I am right now, and I'm glad things have led me to this point. Call it fate? Coincidence? Luck? I'm not sure, but so far, I like this mix of events and decisions to be made. I have the ability to control. We all do. Most things are not out of our control, we just fail to see the means we have to accomplish things.
So, I've come to this conclusion: I have no particular idea of what I want in a relationship. I look around... and that looks good. I'll have that, please. But it's not that easy, right? Or is it? Can't we just let go of everything? My line between head and heart is already blurring...
I think most of this is taking a step back, and just taking everything in. Feeling things. Seeing things. Absorbing things and letting them sink in and get to every deep tiny niche of you that you try to hide.
I may not know what will happen next, but I'm okay with that.
For the first time in a while, I'm happy to be where I am right now, and I'm glad things have led me to this point. Call it fate? Coincidence? Luck? I'm not sure, but so far, I like this mix of events and decisions to be made. I have the ability to control. We all do. Most things are not out of our control, we just fail to see the means we have to accomplish things.
So, I've come to this conclusion: I have no particular idea of what I want in a relationship. I look around... and that looks good. I'll have that, please. But it's not that easy, right? Or is it? Can't we just let go of everything? My line between head and heart is already blurring...