livid.
so i apparently havent updated this shit in 29 weeks now.
and i figured it was time to.
so much shit has gone down lately it isnt even funny.
griffin is such a funny place.
i love how sooo much drama is projected from here... from everyone. and even people who dont live here SEEM to be involved. but i dont think that people realize that you can CHOOSE to separate yourself from it... no one is forcing anything on anyone.
and i am certainly not trying to cause any unnecessary heartache or problems for anyone.
im going to do what i want to do from now on. people are obviously going to have problems with that. and if you do, then im sorry but good riddance. if i keep living my life for other people and trying to make them happy, then i am going to end up a very miserable person. and ive learned this.
i think that it is really fucking silly that i would have to choose between 2 of my best friends who have BOTH been with me through a hell of a lot of shit. who have both helped me survive a horrific breakup, divorce, etc.
they are 2 completely different people and i love what both of them have to offer. and the thought of losing one of them rips me apart. but i refuse to choose.
and that is going to piss people off im sure.
i know that shit happens between people and sometimes its unforgivable. but it shouldnt affect other people's relationships.
living in griffin gets really lonely... there are few people who i trust here. and those are the people who i surround myself with. i cant drive an hour away everyday of my life. its tiring and it costs a lot of money. so in the meantime, i have to have someone here. and if i need a shoulder to cry on, i know i have one right next to me.
this probably doesnt make a lot of sense to a lot of people...
but i know what i mean. and im sure a few other people do too.
and yeah... pms does suck. but dont take it out on me.
and i figured it was time to.
so much shit has gone down lately it isnt even funny.
griffin is such a funny place.
i love how sooo much drama is projected from here... from everyone. and even people who dont live here SEEM to be involved. but i dont think that people realize that you can CHOOSE to separate yourself from it... no one is forcing anything on anyone.
and i am certainly not trying to cause any unnecessary heartache or problems for anyone.
im going to do what i want to do from now on. people are obviously going to have problems with that. and if you do, then im sorry but good riddance. if i keep living my life for other people and trying to make them happy, then i am going to end up a very miserable person. and ive learned this.
i think that it is really fucking silly that i would have to choose between 2 of my best friends who have BOTH been with me through a hell of a lot of shit. who have both helped me survive a horrific breakup, divorce, etc.
they are 2 completely different people and i love what both of them have to offer. and the thought of losing one of them rips me apart. but i refuse to choose.
and that is going to piss people off im sure.
i know that shit happens between people and sometimes its unforgivable. but it shouldnt affect other people's relationships.
living in griffin gets really lonely... there are few people who i trust here. and those are the people who i surround myself with. i cant drive an hour away everyday of my life. its tiring and it costs a lot of money. so in the meantime, i have to have someone here. and if i need a shoulder to cry on, i know i have one right next to me.
this probably doesnt make a lot of sense to a lot of people...
but i know what i mean. and im sure a few other people do too.
and yeah... pms does suck. but dont take it out on me.