Journal Entry 2
It's been a while since I fled from my Cathy in fear and confusion. Holding me against my will, after spending a week kidnapped who know where, was wrong. I know now she was trying to take care of me, that wasn't what I needed. I needed to be with someone that could really help me, I needed my mom .
That's where I've been for the last ... I don't even know. My parents from the past have been taking care of me, mom has been making sure I am staying fed. Dad, just being near has helped make me feel safe. They haven't hovered or pushed me. I love them so much.
My thoughts have turned to my home, my real home, a lot lately. After every nightmare, waking up in a bloody sweat, I think about it. That what happened would never have occurred there. When I calm down I thank the makers that Micah had set me free when he did.
Every night I have had a nightmare, every night except last night. Last night I dreamed of a child, my daughter. Was it just a dream or a premonition? I don't know, but it looked like I really loved her. I never saw who the mother was, but Cathy has been the only woman I've been with recently. The only woman who I've even considered having kids with. And was it even a soon to be future or a far off one. I just hope this is a sign that the nightmares have stopped or at least slowed down.
That's where I've been for the last ... I don't even know. My parents from the past have been taking care of me, mom has been making sure I am staying fed. Dad, just being near has helped make me feel safe. They haven't hovered or pushed me. I love them so much.
My thoughts have turned to my home, my real home, a lot lately. After every nightmare, waking up in a bloody sweat, I think about it. That what happened would never have occurred there. When I calm down I thank the makers that Micah had set me free when he did.
Every night I have had a nightmare, every night except last night. Last night I dreamed of a child, my daughter. Was it just a dream or a premonition? I don't know, but it looked like I really loved her. I never saw who the mother was, but Cathy has been the only woman I've been with recently. The only woman who I've even considered having kids with. And was it even a soon to be future or a far off one. I just hope this is a sign that the nightmares have stopped or at least slowed down.