Day 3
I can't believe it's only day 3. I can definitely feel depression starting to come. I've been thinking about him a lot today. So far I woke up, ran, and took a shower. I looked at my phone - he hasn't tried to contact me. I mean I know he'd have some excuse like "I wanted to give you space" to try make him look nice or something, but the fact is he's fine with going this long without talking to me. I just wish I knew WHY I'm so hung up over this guy. Because then maybe I could change it. There are so much more important things to worry about in life. Like my family, like tragedy. And here I'm worry over this stupid guy.
I have to keep reminding myself of the reasons why I wanted to cut myself off from him. He doesn't care about how I feel. A few times he just left my crying here at my place. Even if I'm upset about something else, if I'm upset, he doesn't want to see me. He only wants to see me when everything's okay. He never wants me to ask any questions. He wants me to just trust him 100%. Well I'm sorry but I don't trust anyone 100%. People are not perfect and they're not robots. They're human and they make mistakes and they can't always be trusted.
So, whenever I feel like I want to contact him, I just have to remember all the reasons (oh, there are so many more than the few I just listed) and hopefully that will keep me from contacting him and then regretting it later.
I'm worried the most about Friday. I hope I won't feel to lonely. I should probably make plans. :-/
I have to keep reminding myself of the reasons why I wanted to cut myself off from him. He doesn't care about how I feel. A few times he just left my crying here at my place. Even if I'm upset about something else, if I'm upset, he doesn't want to see me. He only wants to see me when everything's okay. He never wants me to ask any questions. He wants me to just trust him 100%. Well I'm sorry but I don't trust anyone 100%. People are not perfect and they're not robots. They're human and they make mistakes and they can't always be trusted.
So, whenever I feel like I want to contact him, I just have to remember all the reasons (oh, there are so many more than the few I just listed) and hopefully that will keep me from contacting him and then regretting it later.
I'm worried the most about Friday. I hope I won't feel to lonely. I should probably make plans. :-/