Feeling ill
Hi, Sorry guys havnt posted for about a week now, but I have been watching and reading when I can. I didnt post last weekend because my boyfriend was coming to stay and obviously I couldnt let him catch me on here. And then When he left I had a couple really good days of fasting and cold baths and was back to losing (that weekend I stayed pretty much constant) Then this weekend Iv been ill...and mum has just been feeding me food all the time...even waking me up to try feed me...my boyfriend and his mum have been the same. I know they are trying to help make me better etc, but it is still infuriating. I havnt been on the scales for two days as Im scared iv hit a weight and not lost. And due to my eating rather than starving I have felt some what ashamed of myself especially reading some of the posts you gus have left over the week. Im hoping to be all better and back to work soon though which means I can begin my starve again.
I have noticed some of the posts from new girls and some of the replys. These new girls that have joined, who seem naive and innocent to the world of an eating disorder, thinking it is something that you can chose that it is a new form of fashion or diet. And the replys that are sometimes a little harsh but true. You girls really should not be on here. You do not understand what you are talking about or what you are chosing as a life style, this is not a diet this is something that takes over your whole life and in worse cases affects friends and families lives too. All you girls need to do is a little calorie counting and some good old fashioned exersise.
I love this community because everyone is so supportive and friendly. But it is slowly changing and the reason I joined is slowley dissapearing.
Sorry to have babbled lol!
I hope everyone is doing great and achieving goals.
Love you all Nikki x