New Hair and No Period!
I am feeling much better now that my period has finally gone away. I feel like talking to my family and people again and not act depressed, bitchy or wanting to cry. It's so nice to be back to normal
We're haveing a thunder storm at the moment and I'm having a blast watching it. I hope things will be okay in the house though.
I got my hair done today in a finger wave style and I love it. Now it's not that frizzy ugly afro on top of my head anymore. I've seen nicer afros out there and mine would have probably made one of the top ugliest. Well at least I know that I'm my dads' kid as well as my mom. My hair tells me so with the curliness, frizz and kinks. It's a wonder how I made it through socity as a biracial child and still be considered black by white people and not have too much racisim brought to me. Chance said it was because I was around a white woman but I also think that it's due to the north being a little more discreet about racisim. What ever now. I just really wanted to say that I love my new hair do and I'll get a pic of it up soon.
My mom is one character now. In Jan she said that she would be willing to continue to send me money so that I can take care of William and pay my rent for six months. Now that the six months is up she sent me a letter that stated very clearly that she doesn't want to support me anymore. "When are you going to become financialy independent?" was one of the comments that was in the letter. I haven't gotten a job at the moment 'cause there are important things that need to be done here first and once those things are taken care of I can go out and find a job. "Get on the stick," as it were. I'm thinking now what I'm going to tell her and even then if I tell her something it probably won't be the whole truth if there will be any truth in it. She won't tell me anything about her buisness so I don't say anything about mine. I just tell her news of William and certian things about me and let it go with that. I don't even tell her my financial buisness 'cause of some of the things she has done to me in the past that I'm jsut figuring out now. I have a CD in my bank and I'm going to take it out soon and switch it to another bank since the other has a better percentage than mine. Besides, she said that I could do that. I will not let that woman take another dime from me anymore. She took enough from me and left me in the dark when it came down to it. I really was treated like a kid with her and then I left her and now I have to learn all of these things from other people who aren't even blood relatives but they care enough to teach me something.
This storm is getting real bad now so I'll go to bed before something happens here.
Oyasumi nasai, mina-san.
~Amber~
We're haveing a thunder storm at the moment and I'm having a blast watching it. I hope things will be okay in the house though.
I got my hair done today in a finger wave style and I love it. Now it's not that frizzy ugly afro on top of my head anymore. I've seen nicer afros out there and mine would have probably made one of the top ugliest. Well at least I know that I'm my dads' kid as well as my mom. My hair tells me so with the curliness, frizz and kinks. It's a wonder how I made it through socity as a biracial child and still be considered black by white people and not have too much racisim brought to me. Chance said it was because I was around a white woman but I also think that it's due to the north being a little more discreet about racisim. What ever now. I just really wanted to say that I love my new hair do and I'll get a pic of it up soon.
My mom is one character now. In Jan she said that she would be willing to continue to send me money so that I can take care of William and pay my rent for six months. Now that the six months is up she sent me a letter that stated very clearly that she doesn't want to support me anymore. "When are you going to become financialy independent?" was one of the comments that was in the letter. I haven't gotten a job at the moment 'cause there are important things that need to be done here first and once those things are taken care of I can go out and find a job. "Get on the stick," as it were. I'm thinking now what I'm going to tell her and even then if I tell her something it probably won't be the whole truth if there will be any truth in it. She won't tell me anything about her buisness so I don't say anything about mine. I just tell her news of William and certian things about me and let it go with that. I don't even tell her my financial buisness 'cause of some of the things she has done to me in the past that I'm jsut figuring out now. I have a CD in my bank and I'm going to take it out soon and switch it to another bank since the other has a better percentage than mine. Besides, she said that I could do that. I will not let that woman take another dime from me anymore. She took enough from me and left me in the dark when it came down to it. I really was treated like a kid with her and then I left her and now I have to learn all of these things from other people who aren't even blood relatives but they care enough to teach me something.
This storm is getting real bad now so I'll go to bed before something happens here.
Oyasumi nasai, mina-san.
~Amber~