Its over
It's over with the girl from Auburn unfortunately. Basically she just wasn't into me and thought I was such a decent guy she would lead me on forever letting me think she was into me, just in case she ever actually developed feelings.
This is one of the few girls I've met in my life I would consider "special" so even though it was only 6 or 7 dates, I'm upset about this one. I told her I felt embarrased, and I really do. I wrote it Sep 27
"Maybe a little disbelief that such a cool girl would be into me, I play up this image of cockiness but deep down I believe guys like me don't get girls like her."
And I was right.
I really don't like that she slept with me when she wasn't into me.
I'm slightly bitter but more disapointed. I do feel lucky to have met her though, she inspired me to foster rabbits and helped me realize there is someone better for me than my ex. Unfortunately that someone better wants nothing to do with me. What sucks too is this girl cant find someone better than me (for her) and I think she knows it she just didnt "feel it" and I think thats because she's hung up on her ex, at least thats what her best friend told me. Maybe when she realizes she cant have her ex back she'll be ready to be into me.
Anyway she's amazing, too amazing for me. So this is what happens. I sent her flowers and wished her luck, if it's not me (which it should be) I hope she finds the most amazing guy ever who will treat her well.
It's not like I don't have options, I do, I have some amazing options, I just wanted this one.
This is one of the few girls I've met in my life I would consider "special" so even though it was only 6 or 7 dates, I'm upset about this one. I told her I felt embarrased, and I really do. I wrote it Sep 27
"Maybe a little disbelief that such a cool girl would be into me, I play up this image of cockiness but deep down I believe guys like me don't get girls like her."
And I was right.
I really don't like that she slept with me when she wasn't into me.
I'm slightly bitter but more disapointed. I do feel lucky to have met her though, she inspired me to foster rabbits and helped me realize there is someone better for me than my ex. Unfortunately that someone better wants nothing to do with me. What sucks too is this girl cant find someone better than me (for her) and I think she knows it she just didnt "feel it" and I think thats because she's hung up on her ex, at least thats what her best friend told me. Maybe when she realizes she cant have her ex back she'll be ready to be into me.
Anyway she's amazing, too amazing for me. So this is what happens. I sent her flowers and wished her luck, if it's not me (which it should be) I hope she finds the most amazing guy ever who will treat her well.
It's not like I don't have options, I do, I have some amazing options, I just wanted this one.