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I grew up with my cousins Tara, Adam and Alex. We did everything together. Tara graduated College this year, Adam is guna be a junior in college and Alex is a year younger than me. They lived next to me for a few years when we were little, itty bitty kids. Alex and I use to wake up every morning and have conversations through our windows, yelling over the driveway about what we were guna do that day. A few years passed and they had to move. I was all scared that they were never coming back, but they only moved a couple minutes away. We still saw each other almost every day. My mother and my aunt were super close so we always got taken to each other's houses and we just played for hours. We had bajillions of sleepovers and just caused a shit load of trouble. We were inseperable. We all grew up and managed to stay close. They moved again and we always went there and vice versa. Then I moved to Sutton and we STILL saw each other. Alex was my best friend and Tara and Adam were who I looked up to. As time passed, a couple years ago, we started to see each other less and less. It got to the point that it was such a prolonged period of time until we saw each other that my cousin had lost a bunch of weight and I didn't even know. It sucked so much not having my family around. Eventually the only time we saw each other was when there was family parties and such and even then those were limited. When I got my license it got easier because I was able to drive there but it was still difficult because 'they were always busy.' They never returned phone calls and never had time to do anything. I started to give up. I called Alex one day and asked to hang out and he agreed. I went to pick him up and sped past him on the street, I didn't even recognize my cousin. My best friend for my entire life until I was like 14..it was the worst feeling in the world. A couple weeks ago Alex came to visit me with some of his friends. I told him when my 18th birthday/graduation party was and he promised to be there. They had no plans that day and were going to come. The whole family was going to come. I've never been so excited to have someone there. I love them and they mean the world to me and I miss them more than anything. Alex promised me..we pinky sweared :P, I just wanted them there so bad and when I found out, it didn't really matter if anyone else came. I mean, I wanted everyone there, but it just was different to have them. I found out earlier today that they were invited to a little kids party on the opposite side of the family, but it was okay because they were invited to my party first, which means they're coming, right? My aunt called 20 minutes ago to tell my mom that their family had decided to go to the little boys party. I've never felt this hurt in my entire life. This is the worst feeling in the world.
When we were a lot younger Alex and I talked about what it would be like when we grew up and what would happen if we stopped being friends. We came to the conclusion that we'd never stop being friends. He told me "we'll be friends forever, jess.."
I'm still waiting for forever..
When we were a lot younger Alex and I talked about what it would be like when we grew up and what would happen if we stopped being friends. We came to the conclusion that we'd never stop being friends. He told me "we'll be friends forever, jess.."
I'm still waiting for forever..