"you guys are going to turn me gay" - Jared.
It's 4:57 in the morning.
I just started to write my criminal justice paper and decided I'd finish it later.
TiffanyLynn and TeganEmma are sleeping a few rooms away from me.
Tonight, the two of them plus myself and Jared (SOT) all got together. From 1230am until 4oo we sat and talked about anything and everything. We shared secrets, we confided in each other...and the greatest part about the entire thing is I wasn't afraid to tell them anything. Nothing. We literally told each other some of our deepest, darkest secrets and I have NO DOUBT in my mind that it will stay between the four of us. We bonded on a level that I really never knew was possible and it was the most amazing feeling I have felt in a long, long time. I can't really explain it to you and honestly, I don't feel the need. For the first time, in a long time, I felt comfortable telling people these secrets. Sharing those words...it was so weird and honestly, the best way to describe it would be indescribable, if that makes any sense? I'm not afraid that they'll be stupid bitches and tell everyone what we said. I don't think we'll make fun of each other for what we had to say. I don't have anything negative to say about these people..they're real and they're my friends. It's so crazy because I mean, we were all close and whatever before, but we still had our issues. Any problems we had with each other, we told one another. We laughed, we cried (well, Jared's big and tough, he didn't), we were just real. I cannot tell you how much I've lacked that in my life lately "realness." It's been so gone lately, it sucks a lot. Drama is a joke, it's not something I'm going to miss. Chances are people are offended by this comment, but I don't really care. I'm graduating on the 10th, moving on to another chapter in my life, nuts, huh? I love all my friends, do NOT get me wrong, but the talking about each other every time someone leaves a room, it just doesn't make sense. I know I've done it, more times than I'll EVER be able to count, but I'm over it. I didn't realize we still did it? Seriously...that goes for anyone, not even just people I know. These are suppose to be the best years of your life and if you go about wasting them by talking about other people when they aren't around and then never confronting them and acting like a fake bitch to their face, you're going to hate it, believe me. If I could do high school over again, I probably would, just to start over with a clean slate and make smarter choices. Not lie, not talk about my friends, the who sha-bang. We're done, tomorrow (well..today?) is my last day of high school EVER. The routine, the people, the discipline, it's over folks. DONE. No more teachers making me go to class, no detentions, no suspensions, welcome to the real world, ladies and gentlemen. Don't regret it, whatever you do. You can hate it, you can love it, just don't regret it. I screamed in the car tonight, just yelled about things that I hated and it felt so wonderful to get it off my chest. I want to write a million and one words to explain to you how lucky I am to have just experienced this night. THIS is the type of memory I'll remember forever. We basically plan on doing this again, many times this summer and making our relationship stronger. I'll take these people to college and hopefully they'll be around to do this with in 4 years. If my summer is like this, it will be one to never forget, that's for sure.
I want to just tell you all that I had one of the most amazing nights of my life tonight and if you don't care, I'm sorry, because I do.
Thank You, Guys. I love you.
I just started to write my criminal justice paper and decided I'd finish it later.
TiffanyLynn and TeganEmma are sleeping a few rooms away from me.
Tonight, the two of them plus myself and Jared (SOT) all got together. From 1230am until 4oo we sat and talked about anything and everything. We shared secrets, we confided in each other...and the greatest part about the entire thing is I wasn't afraid to tell them anything. Nothing. We literally told each other some of our deepest, darkest secrets and I have NO DOUBT in my mind that it will stay between the four of us. We bonded on a level that I really never knew was possible and it was the most amazing feeling I have felt in a long, long time. I can't really explain it to you and honestly, I don't feel the need. For the first time, in a long time, I felt comfortable telling people these secrets. Sharing those words...it was so weird and honestly, the best way to describe it would be indescribable, if that makes any sense? I'm not afraid that they'll be stupid bitches and tell everyone what we said. I don't think we'll make fun of each other for what we had to say. I don't have anything negative to say about these people..they're real and they're my friends. It's so crazy because I mean, we were all close and whatever before, but we still had our issues. Any problems we had with each other, we told one another. We laughed, we cried (well, Jared's big and tough, he didn't), we were just real. I cannot tell you how much I've lacked that in my life lately "realness." It's been so gone lately, it sucks a lot. Drama is a joke, it's not something I'm going to miss. Chances are people are offended by this comment, but I don't really care. I'm graduating on the 10th, moving on to another chapter in my life, nuts, huh? I love all my friends, do NOT get me wrong, but the talking about each other every time someone leaves a room, it just doesn't make sense. I know I've done it, more times than I'll EVER be able to count, but I'm over it. I didn't realize we still did it? Seriously...that goes for anyone, not even just people I know. These are suppose to be the best years of your life and if you go about wasting them by talking about other people when they aren't around and then never confronting them and acting like a fake bitch to their face, you're going to hate it, believe me. If I could do high school over again, I probably would, just to start over with a clean slate and make smarter choices. Not lie, not talk about my friends, the who sha-bang. We're done, tomorrow (well..today?) is my last day of high school EVER. The routine, the people, the discipline, it's over folks. DONE. No more teachers making me go to class, no detentions, no suspensions, welcome to the real world, ladies and gentlemen. Don't regret it, whatever you do. You can hate it, you can love it, just don't regret it. I screamed in the car tonight, just yelled about things that I hated and it felt so wonderful to get it off my chest. I want to write a million and one words to explain to you how lucky I am to have just experienced this night. THIS is the type of memory I'll remember forever. We basically plan on doing this again, many times this summer and making our relationship stronger. I'll take these people to college and hopefully they'll be around to do this with in 4 years. If my summer is like this, it will be one to never forget, that's for sure.
I want to just tell you all that I had one of the most amazing nights of my life tonight and if you don't care, I'm sorry, because I do.
Thank You, Guys. I love you.