This sucks.
A week from today is the dress rehersal for my last dance recital as a student. Sure, I'll be moving on in college and pursuing dance on the side..it would be a waste not to, but this is different.
I cannot believe that in less than two weeks, it's over. Something I have been doing for years, a place I have been almost all my life..it's just going to end. Like that. I've made best friends, lost friends, gained confidence...I grew up there. This is where it stops...and I want nothing more than to have people I love and care about there:
Quinsigamond College
Hebert Auditorium, or Hebert something or other
Sunday May 22nd, 2:00pm
$10 a ticket
I just want to look out in the audience and see faces of people that I have grown up with..faces of people that mean something to me..I just want people there to see me come to an end with something I've lived my entire life doing.
I wanted Danielle there, I asked her to come, but we fight about everything..it's depressing..I can't apologize for what has happened. I am sorry about the shit I said, but aside from that..I can't apologize. I hated who she was becoming. I hated that she was always there and I couldn't be...I just couldn't be. I hate that I lost one of my most AMAZING friendships with someone I love because of something stupid. Our friendship getting fucked up..is fucked up. She knew more about ANYONE..she was there for every last thing. She understood me to no end. She really was by my side through absolutely everything. Rachel, problems at my house, dance issues, school work, friendships...you name it, she knew it and was there. I miss her more than anything. I said it to Rae before and I'll say it again, "I can do a lot things but I can't turn back time." I just wanted her there, more than anyone..but don't worry guys, she's not coming.
I cannot believe that in less than two weeks, it's over. Something I have been doing for years, a place I have been almost all my life..it's just going to end. Like that. I've made best friends, lost friends, gained confidence...I grew up there. This is where it stops...and I want nothing more than to have people I love and care about there:
Quinsigamond College
Hebert Auditorium, or Hebert something or other
Sunday May 22nd, 2:00pm
$10 a ticket
I just want to look out in the audience and see faces of people that I have grown up with..faces of people that mean something to me..I just want people there to see me come to an end with something I've lived my entire life doing.
I wanted Danielle there, I asked her to come, but we fight about everything..it's depressing..I can't apologize for what has happened. I am sorry about the shit I said, but aside from that..I can't apologize. I hated who she was becoming. I hated that she was always there and I couldn't be...I just couldn't be. I hate that I lost one of my most AMAZING friendships with someone I love because of something stupid. Our friendship getting fucked up..is fucked up. She knew more about ANYONE..she was there for every last thing. She understood me to no end. She really was by my side through absolutely everything. Rachel, problems at my house, dance issues, school work, friendships...you name it, she knew it and was there. I miss her more than anything. I said it to Rae before and I'll say it again, "I can do a lot things but I can't turn back time." I just wanted her there, more than anyone..but don't worry guys, she's not coming.