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My birthday is coming up (5 days). The party is the Saturday after.
It's so weird to think about the huge difference of this party and the one I had last year. Last year different people were involved in my life. Now, I basically have nothing to do with them.
It's weird. I really want to be friends again, but I don't want to make an effort. I'm not sure if I could be friends with her again. She knows me too well, well enough to fuck me over. And I promised myself that I control my life, I won't get hurt again.
Anyways, on a brighter side, come to my birthday. It will be amazing.
I'm doing good.
I think I could be doing better.
People think I'm doing worse.
And I know there are worse people off than me.
It's so weird to think about the huge difference of this party and the one I had last year. Last year different people were involved in my life. Now, I basically have nothing to do with them.
It's weird. I really want to be friends again, but I don't want to make an effort. I'm not sure if I could be friends with her again. She knows me too well, well enough to fuck me over. And I promised myself that I control my life, I won't get hurt again.
Anyways, on a brighter side, come to my birthday. It will be amazing.
I'm doing good.
I think I could be doing better.
People think I'm doing worse.
And I know there are worse people off than me.