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hello, everyone
I'm home now, but it's been a kinda rough week.
These treatments are HARD! haha, yeah, stupid whattaya expect?? I read my last entry, and how disoriented and disjointed it was, but decided not to edit or correct it just because I thought it was sort of funny and shows how TOTALLY stoned I was!
I came home saturday. And then a bunch of stuff happened:
Monday, I had a blackout and fell on the floor going to the dinner table, and another one an hour or so later talking on the phone to Jonathan..."hello?....hello?....trista???" lol....poor guy. Anyway, those damn things HURT! It's like a head rush, then you think you'll be okay and then your whole body is wracked with sort of a heavy electric shock and you wake up on the floor. So, the next day it was BACK to the hospital for fluids, diagnosis: dehydration.
Which, unfortunately, forced me to ask for a continuance on Brad's contempt hearing. But, I am feeling much stronger now, so I'm ready for this coming Tuesday when it will FINALLY take place!
The judge, in my absence, and due to my illness, ruled that Brad should take the kids at night so I can recover better. It's really not helping. He picks them up at 5:30 pm and brings them home at 6:45 a.m., unbathed/unbrushed, with the same dirty clothes from the night before. Laryssa had a headache all day yesterday and fell asleep on her way home after school, and Hannah had to come home today because her back hurt so bad. Aaron is doing fine.
But my atty said the judge is not happy about the kids having to be up so early/to bed as late as he lets them, and will probably flip it next week, so maybe he can take them for a bit after school, and I will have them again at night, which is preferable for me. I LIKE taking care of them. Brad has no idea what to do.
Anyway, my mom just went home tonight, so I am alone. and it's Brad's weekend, of course. So, it's just me and the blessed Morphine!! :-P Now, that's some good stuff......
So yeah, I'm not really medicating myself during the day at all, but I still take a little Naproxen at bedtimeas well as my sleep meds. But I may have some R&R meds this weekend, because I am still pretty achy.
I still have my hair, for a few more blessed weeks. And still pretty much look like myself. I have dark circles under my eyes without makeup. Someday, I'll sparkle again, I hope.
Anyway, thank you all SO much for reading this, and for the comments so many of you have left.....I know I am not deserving, as I have not been reading everyone else's journals as faithfully as I know I should and would like to. I will try to catch up.
But I appreciate all of the support and encouragement, for me, a stranger to most of you.
*hugs*
Trista
I'm home now, but it's been a kinda rough week.
These treatments are HARD! haha, yeah, stupid whattaya expect?? I read my last entry, and how disoriented and disjointed it was, but decided not to edit or correct it just because I thought it was sort of funny and shows how TOTALLY stoned I was!
I came home saturday. And then a bunch of stuff happened:
Monday, I had a blackout and fell on the floor going to the dinner table, and another one an hour or so later talking on the phone to Jonathan..."hello?....hello?....trista???" lol....poor guy. Anyway, those damn things HURT! It's like a head rush, then you think you'll be okay and then your whole body is wracked with sort of a heavy electric shock and you wake up on the floor. So, the next day it was BACK to the hospital for fluids, diagnosis: dehydration.
Which, unfortunately, forced me to ask for a continuance on Brad's contempt hearing. But, I am feeling much stronger now, so I'm ready for this coming Tuesday when it will FINALLY take place!
The judge, in my absence, and due to my illness, ruled that Brad should take the kids at night so I can recover better. It's really not helping. He picks them up at 5:30 pm and brings them home at 6:45 a.m., unbathed/unbrushed, with the same dirty clothes from the night before. Laryssa had a headache all day yesterday and fell asleep on her way home after school, and Hannah had to come home today because her back hurt so bad. Aaron is doing fine.
But my atty said the judge is not happy about the kids having to be up so early/to bed as late as he lets them, and will probably flip it next week, so maybe he can take them for a bit after school, and I will have them again at night, which is preferable for me. I LIKE taking care of them. Brad has no idea what to do.
Anyway, my mom just went home tonight, so I am alone. and it's Brad's weekend, of course. So, it's just me and the blessed Morphine!! :-P Now, that's some good stuff......
So yeah, I'm not really medicating myself during the day at all, but I still take a little Naproxen at bedtimeas well as my sleep meds. But I may have some R&R meds this weekend, because I am still pretty achy.
I still have my hair, for a few more blessed weeks. And still pretty much look like myself. I have dark circles under my eyes without makeup. Someday, I'll sparkle again, I hope.
Anyway, thank you all SO much for reading this, and for the comments so many of you have left.....I know I am not deserving, as I have not been reading everyone else's journals as faithfully as I know I should and would like to. I will try to catch up.
But I appreciate all of the support and encouragement, for me, a stranger to most of you.
*hugs*
Trista