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i just got back from the second fit session for the fashion show, and i think i have an ulcer. a bad knot in my stomach at the very least.
i know that i have a defeatest attitude when it comes to my capabilities/skills/creativity, and i need to quit that nonsense. but i am really uncomfortable putting myself out there. i'm only entering one garment, a very simple knit dress. and i like it, but i feel like it just doesn't measure up to most of the other things i saw. some of these girls' things are really impressive! i'm going through this whole thing with my eyes half shut, i don't want anyone to see my dress, or to see me with it. at the moment, i'm feeling like i'm not cut out for this. i enjoy the creativity, and i love patternmaking....i suck at sewing...i dunno. can i do this? i never show anyone anything i do, even though the few times i have been forced to, i've gotten positive feedback.
part of me is really excited to see my dress come down the runway, and the other part of me wants it to just be done with already.
whine whine whine, i know.
i know that i have a defeatest attitude when it comes to my capabilities/skills/creativity, and i need to quit that nonsense. but i am really uncomfortable putting myself out there. i'm only entering one garment, a very simple knit dress. and i like it, but i feel like it just doesn't measure up to most of the other things i saw. some of these girls' things are really impressive! i'm going through this whole thing with my eyes half shut, i don't want anyone to see my dress, or to see me with it. at the moment, i'm feeling like i'm not cut out for this. i enjoy the creativity, and i love patternmaking....i suck at sewing...i dunno. can i do this? i never show anyone anything i do, even though the few times i have been forced to, i've gotten positive feedback.
part of me is really excited to see my dress come down the runway, and the other part of me wants it to just be done with already.
whine whine whine, i know.