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a couple things to add:
fuck everything.
fuck the way i hurt. i know that i broke up with you, but it still hurts. but i dont think you really understand that. you cant possibly see that breaking up with you was hard for me, something i didnt want to do, but i did do. it had to be done. we were miserable. i was making you miserable. you said it yourself, im not the same person. and youre right. i think ive become bi-polar myself. im truely sorry that i hurt you, but unlike you i wouldnt erase any of it.
and please dont comment to this. i cant take it anymore. if you want to be my friend, you know im game. if not, im sorry. ive got too much shit to worry about and i dont need to pack on any more emotional baggage.
know this: i did not break up with you for her. im not with her. never was. i broke up with you because i knew that i wasnt fully committed any longer. which was not your fault. its not in me to be with one person. it took a long time to figure that out, and maybe it will change in time.
but i will always love you. and i will always miss you, as i do now.
i hope you find someone that will love you as much, if not more, than i do and that will treat you far better. you truely deserve it.
im hopelessly alone. forever. im beginning to understand this, as well as accept it.
do not reply to this. i havent the heart to hear your useless advice.
fuck everything.
fuck the way i hurt. i know that i broke up with you, but it still hurts. but i dont think you really understand that. you cant possibly see that breaking up with you was hard for me, something i didnt want to do, but i did do. it had to be done. we were miserable. i was making you miserable. you said it yourself, im not the same person. and youre right. i think ive become bi-polar myself. im truely sorry that i hurt you, but unlike you i wouldnt erase any of it.
and please dont comment to this. i cant take it anymore. if you want to be my friend, you know im game. if not, im sorry. ive got too much shit to worry about and i dont need to pack on any more emotional baggage.
know this: i did not break up with you for her. im not with her. never was. i broke up with you because i knew that i wasnt fully committed any longer. which was not your fault. its not in me to be with one person. it took a long time to figure that out, and maybe it will change in time.
but i will always love you. and i will always miss you, as i do now.
i hope you find someone that will love you as much, if not more, than i do and that will treat you far better. you truely deserve it.
im hopelessly alone. forever. im beginning to understand this, as well as accept it.
do not reply to this. i havent the heart to hear your useless advice.