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Im frusterated. I cant say with what exactly but everything. I want/need another job. I want the place that I work at now to make more money. I want to be ahead in school instead of doing everything last minute. I want to graduate in 4 years instead of 5. I feel like there is something putting a thousand pounds of pressure on my chest all the time and its hard for me to breathe. Even when I try to relax I find myself holding my breath for no reason and then I cant catch my breath. I want time to create things that I want to start and finish things that I've already started. I think about things and people I wish I didnt and shouldnt. I always have a never ending list of things I need to do, and I feel like I almost never get any of those things done.
But then I know that realistically, there are people who have it much worse and I need to be grateful for what I do have and think of more positive things; Im not failing any of my classes, I love the cold weather thats coming, I love the time change and how I get to wake up to the sun again, I love Mike and Pipsy and how we are like a little family together, I have good friends.
I want to go to Tampa so bad. Im dyying to see my friends there and visit my sister now that she moved back. I cant believe shes a wrestling diva for WWE!!! lol
Thats all for nowwww
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