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Hmm. Time to update. Where to start, where to start.. ah I know! I shall start with me moving out. Most of you this, though. BUT for those of you weird ones who are totally oblivious to anything going on around you: I moved out! Yay the joy!! It's kinda fun just living with Rachel some days and living with my dad some days... but I don't know. I think the stress of basically living out of my car and not seeing my mom all the time and Vic being a douchebag and all this freaking homework we're getting and not eating well (coughRACHELcough... lol jk babe I love you!), it's just building up and making me sick I think. I'm having migraines like everyday, and I never get headaches, and my stomach hurts really bad all the time. Do you ever get those feelings where like you're really hungry but the mere thought of eating some food makes you nauseous? Well, that's how I feel. And I also get in these moods where I'm realy depressed. I don't know... I'm mentally unstable lol. I don't know what to do. My mom says I should move back in with her, but I don't think I'd be able to take that. I think that would make things worse. Hopefully when school's out things will get better.
So on to a bright subject... maybe? Guys. Erlack. (lol what a great word! I read it in a book today.) They're not exactly considered a "brighter subject" I don't think. Especially not the one Rachel's seeing. Lmao, good one Jessica. Whew alright. Guys. Ahem. Well let's talk about boy #1: liked him since the beginning of school, very hot (I think), awesome style lol, and b-e-a-utiful hair! Well we started talking a lot more and blah blah blah, made me happy. Lately, though, he's been acting weird towards me. Like he's just walk in the classroom and hit me and take my stuff and go through my crap and stuff. At first I thought it was cute because I thought, "Oh, yay. *insertnamehere* is paying attention to me!" But now, damn. It's freaking annoying as all get out! Ugh I don't know what to do. Plus the fact that what Sarah said about him looking like Jesse Schnieder (sp?) kinda grossed me out a little lol. Gosh Sarah, the boy has a minor problem, who doesn't? Way to ruin everything! Lol jk I love you.
Boy #2: Oh daaaaaang. I'm so freaking confused about this one. One minute I think he still likes me, the next minute I have the feeling I annoy him. Wtf?! And guys say girls are confusing! Then there's the fact that he said, "You know you were just another girl, right?" and then later that night he's freaking... grrrr. I want to castrate that one. I'm going to stop before I get too angry though lol.
Boy #3: Ha. Hahahahahaha. This one doesn't really count. He's my butt-buddy/ex-butt-buddy? Hmm no one knows lol. I always say I'm done using him as my 'booty call' but then I get in that mood, (ya'll know what I'm talkin' about lol) and I always call him up. But I don't know if I'm comfortable with him anymore because I'm not really sure where all he's been lol. But DAMN is he GOOOOD! (Mike, babe, I really doubt you got more skills than this one lmao.)
Boy #4: I don't know. He likes me, I don't know if I like him. I don't think I do. The end.
Wow. Dang I'm sorry you guys! That was a lot of stuff on boys. Shit, they're not even worth all that lol. Um yes, what next what next. I love my friends! Rachel, Sarah, and Steph. You all are the closest ones to me. I know some of ya'll are fighting right now but everything will work out, person(s) will realize things, and all will be well again with us.. quartet? Hmm. And Rachel, Steph, WARRENSBURG! I'm dying for a nother Burg weekend. Seriously. Remember how Steph was feeling the night we "camped out" at the high school? Um yes... that's me right now lol. SHHH! It's normal. And I, unlike Steph, will not be sooo desperate that I will even consider thinking about getting friendly with a stuffed animal bear. Lmao I love you girl.
I wanted to talk about church and all that great stuff.. but idk. Basically what I wanted to say was that I've just been thinking more about what's gonna happen and stuff and I KNOW I should change, but the thing is I don't WANT to change. I like the way I'm living. I like going out and drivin around all night in Burg and doing things I'm not supposed to be doing and all that jazz. I love it! I know it's wrong, but frankly my dear, I don't give a damn. Lol isn't that from a movie or something? I feel really terrible thinking this but ya know, what are ya gonna do. It's just how I feel at the moment.
My brother. Ya'll... I don't think you know what's goin on with him. He is SO going down the wrong path. We talked last night at church and WOW. I found out stuff about my brother that.. omg my jaw dropped. Literally. He is doing all this stuff (I'm not gonna say it just in case the wrong person stumbles upon my lj) and I'm scared you guys. I am seriously scared to death. So if any of you talk to my brother at all just.. idk... encourage him to do GOOD things alright? Yes, that sounds gay and Barney-ish but dude if you only knew.
Well this is EXTREMELY long but I'm bored. I'll see you all later. I love you guys!
CONGRATULATIONS SARAH! JUNIOR CLASS PRESIDENT!!!!!!!!! :-) Good job girl.
P.S. You guys, keep your eyes out for houses for rent alright? My mom is having trouble finding a place to live. Thankee.
TOODLES!!!
So on to a bright subject... maybe? Guys. Erlack. (lol what a great word! I read it in a book today.) They're not exactly considered a "brighter subject" I don't think. Especially not the one Rachel's seeing. Lmao, good one Jessica. Whew alright. Guys. Ahem. Well let's talk about boy #1: liked him since the beginning of school, very hot (I think), awesome style lol, and b-e-a-utiful hair! Well we started talking a lot more and blah blah blah, made me happy. Lately, though, he's been acting weird towards me. Like he's just walk in the classroom and hit me and take my stuff and go through my crap and stuff. At first I thought it was cute because I thought, "Oh, yay. *insertnamehere* is paying attention to me!" But now, damn. It's freaking annoying as all get out! Ugh I don't know what to do. Plus the fact that what Sarah said about him looking like Jesse Schnieder (sp?) kinda grossed me out a little lol. Gosh Sarah, the boy has a minor problem, who doesn't? Way to ruin everything! Lol jk I love you.
Boy #2: Oh daaaaaang. I'm so freaking confused about this one. One minute I think he still likes me, the next minute I have the feeling I annoy him. Wtf?! And guys say girls are confusing! Then there's the fact that he said, "You know you were just another girl, right?" and then later that night he's freaking... grrrr. I want to castrate that one. I'm going to stop before I get too angry though lol.
Boy #3: Ha. Hahahahahaha. This one doesn't really count. He's my butt-buddy/ex-butt-buddy? Hmm no one knows lol. I always say I'm done using him as my 'booty call' but then I get in that mood, (ya'll know what I'm talkin' about lol) and I always call him up. But I don't know if I'm comfortable with him anymore because I'm not really sure where all he's been lol. But DAMN is he GOOOOD! (Mike, babe, I really doubt you got more skills than this one lmao.)
Boy #4: I don't know. He likes me, I don't know if I like him. I don't think I do. The end.
Wow. Dang I'm sorry you guys! That was a lot of stuff on boys. Shit, they're not even worth all that lol. Um yes, what next what next. I love my friends! Rachel, Sarah, and Steph. You all are the closest ones to me. I know some of ya'll are fighting right now but everything will work out, person(s) will realize things, and all will be well again with us.. quartet? Hmm. And Rachel, Steph, WARRENSBURG! I'm dying for a nother Burg weekend. Seriously. Remember how Steph was feeling the night we "camped out" at the high school? Um yes... that's me right now lol. SHHH! It's normal. And I, unlike Steph, will not be sooo desperate that I will even consider thinking about getting friendly with a stuffed animal bear. Lmao I love you girl.
I wanted to talk about church and all that great stuff.. but idk. Basically what I wanted to say was that I've just been thinking more about what's gonna happen and stuff and I KNOW I should change, but the thing is I don't WANT to change. I like the way I'm living. I like going out and drivin around all night in Burg and doing things I'm not supposed to be doing and all that jazz. I love it! I know it's wrong, but frankly my dear, I don't give a damn. Lol isn't that from a movie or something? I feel really terrible thinking this but ya know, what are ya gonna do. It's just how I feel at the moment.
My brother. Ya'll... I don't think you know what's goin on with him. He is SO going down the wrong path. We talked last night at church and WOW. I found out stuff about my brother that.. omg my jaw dropped. Literally. He is doing all this stuff (I'm not gonna say it just in case the wrong person stumbles upon my lj) and I'm scared you guys. I am seriously scared to death. So if any of you talk to my brother at all just.. idk... encourage him to do GOOD things alright? Yes, that sounds gay and Barney-ish but dude if you only knew.
Well this is EXTREMELY long but I'm bored. I'll see you all later. I love you guys!
CONGRATULATIONS SARAH! JUNIOR CLASS PRESIDENT!!!!!!!!! :-) Good job girl.
P.S. You guys, keep your eyes out for houses for rent alright? My mom is having trouble finding a place to live. Thankee.
TOODLES!!!