art rut
I'm in an art rut.... and I don't care.
What I'm making is boring and uninspired. I feel like in the past few days, all projects I've worked on have come up sub-par compared to everyone else working on the same assignment.
• Public Art Studies class... public art proposal on campus was a fairly tame idea. Mechanical recycling structure outside of campus that has interchangeable sculptural disposal bins.
• Design Projects class, one group got featured on LAist, a blog I read all the time and has great posts about the city. Gah! Our idea, barely inspires even myself. I'll post the blog link once it's polished. But basically we created a game to play during the week with yourself to make your day more interesting.
I need a break from it all. I need something to inspire me. Seeing everyone's presentations about their art has made me feel so vacant of anything worthwhile of making art. I'm taking one art class next semester that will require concept behind the art, and I think that's good. That'll be a ceramics independent study. I already know what I'm doing for that, so I'm excited. The other art classes are "Japanese Brush Painting" and "Drawing for Animators" (mostly just a life drawing class), so I think they'll be more technical building skills than anything else.
But other than that, I have no urge to produce. And seriously, seeing everyone's amazing work in senior seminar has made me realize that I really have no voice behind my art. I think I need to find that voice. I'm practically not sad to be graduating. Last year I thought I'd be like super sad, and super depressed about the whole thing. But I think I feel no heart in anything I do anymore. I'm mostly sick of writing essays that I put forth no effort in, making the poor T.A.'s grade a piece of shit paper. But it's more depressing if I'm producing art with ideas that are forced out of me.
Sure, I'll miss the atmosphere. I love the college environment. I love always having my friends here. I love not paying any bills. But I really need a change of pace. I need to experience something new to rejuvenate the artist in me that I know is there. I need to become like a firefighter, or play in the ocean more, or something that will spark me to think about the world and my thoughts in new ways.
What I'm making is boring and uninspired. I feel like in the past few days, all projects I've worked on have come up sub-par compared to everyone else working on the same assignment.
• Public Art Studies class... public art proposal on campus was a fairly tame idea. Mechanical recycling structure outside of campus that has interchangeable sculptural disposal bins.
• Design Projects class, one group got featured on LAist, a blog I read all the time and has great posts about the city. Gah! Our idea, barely inspires even myself. I'll post the blog link once it's polished. But basically we created a game to play during the week with yourself to make your day more interesting.
I need a break from it all. I need something to inspire me. Seeing everyone's presentations about their art has made me feel so vacant of anything worthwhile of making art. I'm taking one art class next semester that will require concept behind the art, and I think that's good. That'll be a ceramics independent study. I already know what I'm doing for that, so I'm excited. The other art classes are "Japanese Brush Painting" and "Drawing for Animators" (mostly just a life drawing class), so I think they'll be more technical building skills than anything else.
But other than that, I have no urge to produce. And seriously, seeing everyone's amazing work in senior seminar has made me realize that I really have no voice behind my art. I think I need to find that voice. I'm practically not sad to be graduating. Last year I thought I'd be like super sad, and super depressed about the whole thing. But I think I feel no heart in anything I do anymore. I'm mostly sick of writing essays that I put forth no effort in, making the poor T.A.'s grade a piece of shit paper. But it's more depressing if I'm producing art with ideas that are forced out of me.
Sure, I'll miss the atmosphere. I love the college environment. I love always having my friends here. I love not paying any bills. But I really need a change of pace. I need to experience something new to rejuvenate the artist in me that I know is there. I need to become like a firefighter, or play in the ocean more, or something that will spark me to think about the world and my thoughts in new ways.