circles and spirals
they all come back around again. back into the depths of the cave in my mind... lost again.
i just want someone to get this. to still want me when i'm like this. just to hold me and tell me it's all going to be ok. and it's just not going to happen is it? it all just keeps coming back around no matter what. no matter how zen i get, no matter how ok i get, no matter what job i find, where i live, who i'm with.... it all just comes back around. and nobody gets it.
this is a filtered list. i'm more untrusting as of late. if you can read this, welcome to the madness. oh hey, it's after midnight.. i shouldn't be typing. it's supposed to be a rule or something.
it's gonna be a tranquilizer kind of night, isn't it. oi. ok. brain off. i will wake to brood another day.
eta: opening up the filters to let someone in.
i just want someone to get this. to still want me when i'm like this. just to hold me and tell me it's all going to be ok. and it's just not going to happen is it? it all just keeps coming back around no matter what. no matter how zen i get, no matter how ok i get, no matter what job i find, where i live, who i'm with.... it all just comes back around. and nobody gets it.
this is a filtered list. i'm more untrusting as of late. if you can read this, welcome to the madness. oh hey, it's after midnight.. i shouldn't be typing. it's supposed to be a rule or something.
it's gonna be a tranquilizer kind of night, isn't it. oi. ok. brain off. i will wake to brood another day.
eta: opening up the filters to let someone in.