[Damiren] a light in dark places
((Not an entry written in his actual journal; a transcript of thoughts.))
She's crazy. I didn't know. How could I know? She lied, she's a murderer. There's more of them. The poor girl that brings me food... she's a victim, a prisoner. Like me. Like...
How can I hate him when I see him standing frozen next to me with that stupid expression of surprise? For all his cruelty, does he deserve this? And if he does, why am I here?? What did I do do deserve this??
She can't use me without letting me go. I'm useless as long as I'm locked in a closet with my hands tied. She can't keep me from running as soon as I have a hint of freedom. But... can I leave them here? It's easy to ignore him, just assume his condition cannot be reversed and he's dead like Ceirin like Annicus. But the girl... how can I leave her behind, knowing what they will do to her, what will keep happening to her?
So far Ceir Serendan has just talked to me, vague threats. The mute girl is the only other one I've seen, but I know there's more. What are they planning to do to me?
To relieve boredom and fear, I've been meditating much more than usual, and I can feel the Light in me, stronger than ever. I know it's more powerful now, but I don't know how to use it. Maybe if I did, I could get out of here, get us out of here. I have to learn. I have to try.
She's crazy. I didn't know. How could I know? She lied, she's a murderer. There's more of them. The poor girl that brings me food... she's a victim, a prisoner. Like me. Like...
How can I hate him when I see him standing frozen next to me with that stupid expression of surprise? For all his cruelty, does he deserve this? And if he does, why am I here?? What did I do do deserve this??
She can't use me without letting me go. I'm useless as long as I'm locked in a closet with my hands tied. She can't keep me from running as soon as I have a hint of freedom. But... can I leave them here? It's easy to ignore him, just assume his condition cannot be reversed and he's dead like Ceirin like Annicus. But the girl... how can I leave her behind, knowing what they will do to her, what will keep happening to her?
So far Ceir Serendan has just talked to me, vague threats. The mute girl is the only other one I've seen, but I know there's more. What are they planning to do to me?
To relieve boredom and fear, I've been meditating much more than usual, and I can feel the Light in me, stronger than ever. I know it's more powerful now, but I don't know how to use it. Maybe if I did, I could get out of here, get us out of here. I have to learn. I have to try.