Wow it's been a while, so yeah it's long
I guess you don't really know how long it been between post till you actually take a second and look. Well I guess it been about 3 weeks and I just really haven't had much to say. Just been allot going on at home and with our personal life and I had to be abit more attentive at home, so thing just have just be a bit crazy.
In other new I have no idea where thing lay with our current standing with our peers, that falls under both parts of our lives. We gotten so busy and just unable to do spend the time and resources, oh well and deal with some of the crap that going on I just not sure where it going to go.
Ok, I can handle the feeling out of place, I don't mind saying I'm wrong, I don't even mind people saying allot of things that I wouldn't take from allot of people, but Damn. It like they tell you have to take the good with the evil, but man.
I think allot of it has to do with change, and fitting in. Oh my greatest weakness, fitting in, I never did, to a point I still don't fell like I do. I know that I've have made a big change, I notice it, Viv notices it, and people have mentioned it to us, but the world stays the same. I guess you would think it would change with us, but I guess people have to want it to change. I didn't mention about it but about a week and half ago I shared a hug with some one that well it just felt like I was there, like I finally got some where that I had worked for. In that second I felt like, Yeah I did something worth doing, and I know now that to her that hug meant so much as well. It was funny we talked about it after and well it brought me to tears just to know that I finally had that sort of relationship with her. I don't want to mention names, but thanks girl, things left to do in life is one less, and well worth the work.
Oh, back to the group thing, I know not every one is aware of the thing we do, I know it been kinda hit or miss sort of thing even with our own families, so just say we belong to a group of people with like interest and leave it at that. Well at least currently we do, we renew every year, but I think we may not do it this year. We have changed, allot, and well between issues with people and just kinda being tired of crap. I love that they are so into freedom of expression, but only when you don't tell people the truth. I always been in your face and don't give a damn, and even with the group I had to apologies to a few people that I have told to go to hell, one of which I even would consider to be one of the few good people left in this world. But it just to a point where what is left to say, If I want to be part of this I have to conform to your standards. I can understand allot of the issues that people have with some things, but now it seams that allot more of the individualism is gone from it. Like people bitch about the weather but they don't do anything about it. You don't like us for who we are, or what we represent, fine I ok with that, one less person I got to make time for. It just funny that a group who hopes to be free to do what they want and not be persecuted for it, also is one that says they don't want to act on it. Great that we support all this stuff, but when push comes to shove are you ready to let you actions speak for you.
Damn what else I got, oh our friends, we like never see them. We see a few of them every now and then but I would really like to see them more. It just we, well I guess we just don't yet have the history with them. I guess it be nice to go out with them in like small groups. I already plan on hitting the club with them Sunday night, like damn I need a drink.
FYI just to insure that people realize this, this is how I feel, any views in here are mine and mine alone, and to the ones I care about you know how I feel if you don't just ask me and I let you know what is up.
In other new I have no idea where thing lay with our current standing with our peers, that falls under both parts of our lives. We gotten so busy and just unable to do spend the time and resources, oh well and deal with some of the crap that going on I just not sure where it going to go.
Ok, I can handle the feeling out of place, I don't mind saying I'm wrong, I don't even mind people saying allot of things that I wouldn't take from allot of people, but Damn. It like they tell you have to take the good with the evil, but man.
I think allot of it has to do with change, and fitting in. Oh my greatest weakness, fitting in, I never did, to a point I still don't fell like I do. I know that I've have made a big change, I notice it, Viv notices it, and people have mentioned it to us, but the world stays the same. I guess you would think it would change with us, but I guess people have to want it to change. I didn't mention about it but about a week and half ago I shared a hug with some one that well it just felt like I was there, like I finally got some where that I had worked for. In that second I felt like, Yeah I did something worth doing, and I know now that to her that hug meant so much as well. It was funny we talked about it after and well it brought me to tears just to know that I finally had that sort of relationship with her. I don't want to mention names, but thanks girl, things left to do in life is one less, and well worth the work.
Oh, back to the group thing, I know not every one is aware of the thing we do, I know it been kinda hit or miss sort of thing even with our own families, so just say we belong to a group of people with like interest and leave it at that. Well at least currently we do, we renew every year, but I think we may not do it this year. We have changed, allot, and well between issues with people and just kinda being tired of crap. I love that they are so into freedom of expression, but only when you don't tell people the truth. I always been in your face and don't give a damn, and even with the group I had to apologies to a few people that I have told to go to hell, one of which I even would consider to be one of the few good people left in this world. But it just to a point where what is left to say, If I want to be part of this I have to conform to your standards. I can understand allot of the issues that people have with some things, but now it seams that allot more of the individualism is gone from it. Like people bitch about the weather but they don't do anything about it. You don't like us for who we are, or what we represent, fine I ok with that, one less person I got to make time for. It just funny that a group who hopes to be free to do what they want and not be persecuted for it, also is one that says they don't want to act on it. Great that we support all this stuff, but when push comes to shove are you ready to let you actions speak for you.
Damn what else I got, oh our friends, we like never see them. We see a few of them every now and then but I would really like to see them more. It just we, well I guess we just don't yet have the history with them. I guess it be nice to go out with them in like small groups. I already plan on hitting the club with them Sunday night, like damn I need a drink.
FYI just to insure that people realize this, this is how I feel, any views in here are mine and mine alone, and to the ones I care about you know how I feel if you don't just ask me and I let you know what is up.