winter...break?
I know winter break is coming, and I can't wait to be done stressing over classes and playing and stuff like that...but the more I think about it the more I realize it's not really a break. As discussed in a previous entry I want to test for my next degree black belt. If I didn't update you guys I'm testing in late January. Over winter break I'll be training and working out a lot to prepare. Also I have to practice horn a lot. My teacher wants me to perform a piece in one of the brass recitals and he wants me to do a lot of other stuff too. In spring of 2010 I'll be putting on my senior recital. I know I'll be able to make time for my friends and to relax a little at night, but I should organize a daily schedule so I get everything in. I'll be like doing Wii Fit, practicing horn and then going to the dojo every chance i get lol. I feel like I need to do more...in everything. I know I could be a better horn player if I practiced more...which is sad. If I don't do my best then how can I expect my future students to? I think I need to take music as seriously as I take karate. And I want to reach my next degree so bad. Not for selfish reasons or to say that I have a second degree black belt. I just feel like I'm at the next level with Justin and Nick and I want to be recognized as such. If I don't start expecting the best out of myself in music and karate then I'll never be as good as I can be. That's the worst pain ever. Knowing I can do more and just not doing anything about it. It's like admitting that you suck at life. Winter break will be the beginning of a new life....and if I'm lucky I might be able to stop missing christy for a few minutes once in a while.